I haven't posted it here just yet, but Moses is in need of prayer - he's gone down hill rather slowly but steadily since his surgery at UT first of July. that down hill slide profoundly accelerated over the last 2 weeks. I will be a bit more descriptive with all of that and open a new thread later this evening or tomorrow - but for now suffice it to say that when I left home with him yesterday morning I told him he most likely wouldn't be coming back with us. I wrote what's below after a long YESTERDAY at Upstate Veterinary Specialists in Asheville - so "this morning" and "today" where written below - actually refers to
YESTERDAY
Evidence that "grandpa Bob" passed by today
this is the story of an amazing string of incredibly intertwined
"coincidences" . . . I believe they were intended to let us know that Moses was going to be in good hands – regardless of what happened. see what you think.
this morning we took our nearly 10yr old Rottweiler Moses for an internal medicine consult at Upstate Veterinary Specialists, Asheville location. since his surgery at UT first of July, he's been slowly but steadily declining. Truth be told, with out going into specifics, his clinical picture and physical findings suggest an extremely unhappy outcome – and that very quickly. To be quite frank I told him when we left the house this morning that he may very well not be coming back home with us, that he may have to go to the meadow today and wait there for us to come for him. If that were to happen, when he got there I told him to look for aunt Denise and his kitty Mr Biddles; that he should remember us and wait with aunt Denise, because we'd be along soon enough - and she'd let him know when we were coming for him.
In Asheville we went through his extensive history, reviewed records of his immediate past vet care and carefully detailing his recent precipitous decline. following a brief physical exam, they took him back for sedation and an extensive work up. We returned to the front and settled in for a long (7.5 hr) wait. It was then that things got "interesting".
In the waiting room was a little yellow lab with her mom. The dog watched me intently as I walked by and wagged aggressively. I asked her mom if I could approach and pet the dog. I was given permission to do so and the following conversation occurred:
"You're welcome to come and pet her but she's very fearful of strangers so don't be surprised if she doesn't cower and run away" (perhaps because she could sense the profound sadness in me the little dog bounded right over began to lick my hand.)
"What's her name?" "
LILLY - but if she were a male I'd rename her
DENNIS - as in 'Dennis the Menace' - because of
ALL THE MEDICAL PROBLEMS she's had in her short life,
BUT SHE ALWAYS SEEMS TO PULL THROUGH IN THE END".
"How old is she? What's wrong and why are you here with her today?" "
SHE'S ALMOST 10 MONTHS old; she'd been seen by an ER vet Sunday for
POSSIBLE OBSTRUCTED BOWEL and got somewhat better initially but regressed and the ER vet sent us here for further workup -
SHE MAY NEED SURGERY." I told her about our other Rottweiler Bo who'd had an obstruction 10 years earlier requiring extensive surgery to resolve, and that she'd fully recovered.
I told her that we'd once had a yellow lab named Sam; that he'd ultimately ended up with my in laws eventually becoming very attached to my
NOW DECEASED FATHER-IN-LAW BOB. When Sam ultimately passed it had been hard on Bob - but not nearly as hard as it had been when
BOB'S ROTTWEILER BUBBA PASSED from osteosarcoma; and that
I'D GONE TO BE WITH BOB in order to provide moral support the day he put Bubba down. I witnessed a tuff as nails crusty old CWO4, retired 24 years mechanized infantry, Korean war veteran with 2 tours in Vietnam at the absolute height of the war turn into a sobbing shell of himself over the loss of his dog.
I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT THAT DAY 25 YEARS EARLIER WITH BOB AND BUBBA - UNTIL THIS MORNING when as I was getting ready to leave with Moses for the trip to Asheville, the memory of the profound sorrow he felt that day came pouring back to me out of the blue - and I realized I was more than likely going to be facing it myself later today.
The entire conversation passed between Lilly's mom and I in under 3 minutes, yet it was full of
"coincidences" that were immediately apparent to me as rapidly as they occurred.
More specifically – they are as follows:
post #83 in this thread (here)
http://www.timebomb2000.com/vb/showt...02#post6721102 details a visit from my cat "schweepe" the day we put her down. "schweepe" was her nickname –
BUT HER REAL NAME WAS LILLY
MY name
IS DENNIS - as in 'Dennis the Mennace'
our nickname for Moses is "BOO BOO PUPPY" - because he's been plagued with serious
MEDICAL PROBLEMS throughout the bulk of his life, but like Lilly the little yellow lab in the waiting room this morning -
HE ALWAYS SEEMED TO PULL THROUGH IN THE END
Lilly the little lab is
ALMOST 10 MONTHS old; Moses is
ALMOST 10 YEARS old
Bob's dog "Sam" was a yellow lab - so the little yellow lab Lillie
TIES HER TO BOB
Our other Rottie "Bo" had a very serious
BOWEL OBSTRUCTION 10 years earlier but recovered
WITH SURGERY ON MY BIRTHDAY – Bo was also born on my birthday - one week and two years
AFTER BOB HAD PASSED
Bo's
OBSTRUCTED BOWEL is a tie in by virtue not only the "condition" itself and the fact that Bo was born on my birthday but
SURGERY for the obstruction was done at midnight
ON MY BIRTHDAY a week and two years to the day after Bob's death. my sister Denise was with us as we sat and waited for Bo to come out of surgery - "AUNT DENISE" who had known Moses is who I told Moses to find and where I told him to wait for us. the night before we went for Moses consult I "felt" very strongly that I should tell him to go and find Aunt Denise - simply because Denise and I shared a common belief that animals are with us on the other side and we'd often spoken of it together.
Over the course of a great many years, in all the times I've discussed "doggie ills" with complete strangers
I HAVE NEVER MET ANOTHER DOG OWNER WHO'S DOG HAD A BOWEL OBSTRUCTION
consider now that each and every one of those
"coincidences" occurred in rapid succession - and in the space of a 3 minute conversation - BUT - THERE'S MORE . . .
Lilly's owner and I parted with well wishes and I told Raggedyann about our conversation; Raggedyann and I acknowledged the string of
"coincidences" and pondered their meaning and significance. It was then that I shared with Raggedyann what I'd said to Moses this morning about going to the meadow where he should find "Aunt Denise" and wait for us . . . Raggedyann immediately realized that it was
HER FATHER BOB who had passed by and that it was BOB because I had been present for him when he put Bubba down. It was only then that I told her that
I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT THAT DAY WITH BOB AND BUBBA 25 YEARS EARLIER UNTIL THIS MORNING when it came to me out of the blue as I was getting ready to leave with Moses earlier this morning. Denise knew Moses - but Bob had never met him. I believe my being with Bob when he put Bubba down is the stronger karmic connection.
STILL not enough to convince you?
Well try this on . . . we left shortly there after for lunch. While we're sitting out side waiting for our food and discussing the above
"coincidences" . . . Raggedyann noticed that someone had left an Asheville news paper on the table next to us. Raggedyann picks it up - and the paper is turned to the OBITUARIES section. At the bottom of that obituary page is an 8 X 10 picture of footprints in the sand – the words written next to it are these:
those we love don't go away.
they walk beside us everyday.
author unknown
THAT is no "coincidence" – THAT is
CONFIRMATION that Moses will be waiting to welcome us home in the meadow - and he'll be there with "Grandpa Bob"
so - - - NOW how to interpret all of this? yesterday when I was all set mentally and emotionally to say good bye to him I interpreted it all to mean that Moses was going to be with Bob and that we were being sent a message of loving compassion and reassurance; that what we prayed it WAS over there IS in fact the case; that it WAS going to be all that it could be for him when we let him go, that he'd be waiting and we be with him again. today I am wondering if it means not only that - but if it also means he's going to pull through this mess ONCE AGAIN - just as he always has in the past - just like BO DID with her OBSTRUCTION and SURGERY - and just like the little yellow lab LILLY has always done . . .
that remains to be seen - because yesterday afternoon I'd made the decision he was going to be put down - he was literally minutes from it when Raggedyann stopped me asking that we bring him home and let our own integrative vet start him on a different regimen - if it failed we could always put him down in a few days . . . I agreed - and - today he's improving literally for the first time in weeks. I've never wanted to be SO COMPLETELY WRONG about a decision that I ALMOST made - in my entire life . . .
we deeply appreciate your prayers for him
Moses
