I am praying for you.
The son of my long-term attorney and friend took his life about three years ago. He was 20. One the surface, had everything going for him. Yet a tortured soul.
I asked her how she faced this. They are a Christian family and they have the hope of the resurrection, her answer surprised me a little, but it's true...
She said that, when our children are small, we do all kinds of things for them, maybe not what we want, but things that need doing, as parents, we do them because they need done. Change diapers, get up in the night when they are sick, teenage years, and more. She said that keeping on through this horrible situation is one more thing that she needs to do for her son.
I know this is hard for her. Humbling for me to hear. Encouraging to hear her basement foundation of resolve, not some sugar-coated bandaid.
I had come to say that our Father is not mad at her son. We are covered by Jesus' sacrifice. I believe that's true.
And I learned something from her about loving my children. More.
Anney, I hope you find some encouragement in this. I am so sorry for your loss.