#174
"Mark,"
"Yeah,",
"I have a feeling that there are additional brothers, maybe not from the same mother; but more of them than we know about." Clora's voice was low with hurt.
"To be honest, I've wondered about that possibility; it's something that might be a fact for all of us." Mark was equally subdued. "It's always bothered me more than I care to admit, that I was never able to totally reach Ted. Even as a child, there was always a barrier, and yet he was so young when he came to live with us. He was so single minded about numbers, and I don't find anything that would cause such a response in his upbringing."
"The DNA reported that Milo and Ted were twins, but I've never felt that to be true." Clora was caught up in the self-introspection. "They are so different in personalities, morals and life outlook. As a matter of fact, I've never accepted the fact of Milo and Ted were twins. I've always felt that Charles and Ted were the twins; and that we were fed a long list of misinformation about that whole situtation. Not to my credit, I've swept a lot of the troubles in our lives under the rug, the day to day survival effort of living overshadowed those problems. We were at the time, just falling out of one crisis into another. Look at TJ; that's a hurt that squeezes my heart hard enough to stop my breathing."
"Clora, I've thought hard about TJ; and it always comes down to the fact that we tried to raise our family according to God's directions. It's the people that marry into the family; aside from Ben and Ted; that eventually start causing us problems. I know," Mark held up his hand to stop the protest he could see forming in Clora. "we can't control 'everything', it's just that I'd like too."
"Oh, is that your OCD showing," Clora teased gently; "I haven't thought about that in a long time. Do you think it's becoming less gripping as you age?"
"No, I don't think so, I believe I've learned to shut a lot of it off. I was so stricken when we lived in Applewood farm, I thought I'd go crazy with the pressures. As for falling out of one crisis into another, you are sure right about that. I believe that living here is actually the less stressed we've been in many, many years." Mark was truthful in his recollections.
"Mark, this upcoming 'conference' seems not to be totally legitimate. I want you to be extremely careful. I'm being selfish, I hate to see you be away for such a long time. If there were any other way that that you could continue to be a patriot, and not go, I would beg you to consider it."
Mark walked them into the house, and seated Clora while he stoked the stove. "Clora, are you telling me that I won't return?" he asked gravely, troubled by her response.
"No, not exactly." Clora held his eyes with her own. "I feel danger, and I can't tell if it's you, Tess or Wyatt."
"Then I won't go," Mark said instantly, "I can't put family in danger. We will have to figure another way to gain pasture. When I say that, do you feel anything?"
"Relief," Clora said with conviction, "deep relief."
"Then it's settled, I will see about informing Wyatt. What about Tess, what does she feel about this?"
"We have the same thoughts, except that she intends to protect Wyatt and you." Clora was watching Mark as he poured coffee and set two cups on the table. Coming over to sit down close to Clora, they held hands. Work worn and scarred, hands that had worked hard to stay alive and raise children, gloried in the feel of one another.
"I really don't like the thought of that," Mark admitted slowly, "It goes against my inner core to have a woman to ride herd over me."
"You have a daughter that is a carbon copy of you. I'm afraid that it will happen, no matter what you think about it, and actually you have no say so about the situtation."
That much like me, huh?" Mark said dryly.
Yes, an apple still hanging on the branch," Clora chuckled and took a drink of coffee. "Would you feel better if you had a cookie?"
"I would, that is, if that louse Wyatt hasn't eaten them all."
"For you, I always have cookies," Clora smiled as she went to the cupboard next to where she told Wyatt to find the treats.