Story Threats Within, Threats Without

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Here's one that has been pinging around in my head for a bit ...

No, I haven't forgotten the other stories still in progress, I've just gotten to a point that I can't edit them and need to step back. I needed something fresh after the last few months clogging up the brain pan. Little bit of a bumpy start. Some of it sounds so cliche I worried about posting it. But I needed a framework and that is where the muse took me.

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Chapter 1​


I have the ghost of a story running round and round in my head, but I can’t get it out. It won’t leave me alone. I can’t sleep. I can’t focus enough to stay awake to problem-solve. I alternate feeling it is a dystopian piece, a piece of survivalist fiction, maybe historical fiction, rom-drama, or maybe something in space. Then again, nothing is fitting, and it could simply be a piece of useless trash that is just my brain’s way of dumping the day’s excess. Nothing is giving me any kind of satisfaction like when a story’s plot becomes cohesive, and I can start writing; is giving the excess of energy that comes with the beginning of every story a constructive direction.

My writing style varies. Some of my most successful have been stream of conscious prose where the story just flows out of me. There is a lot of editing involved with that, but the muse sometimes simply dictates … or rides me like a beast with spurs and crop, and it just pours out of me from some place. Some of it is in journal format, similar to this document that I have started just to bleed off some of these horrible jitters. Some of my best work I have a plot develop and the research bug hits, and I have an outline done in a couple of days with lots of detail, and then the muse fills in the blank spaces. Most of my stories, regardless of how the prose is written, is first person; one person being the main character and making things personal. I have a few that are third person but not many. I can’t “become” the main character in third person. In third person I am just an observer and can’t always show the emotions involved and I lose the storyline.

I know what the problem is. I feel myself starting to run a fever like I always do when I become over stressed, confused, angry, hyper-emotional. When I get like this nothing in my brain wants to do what I need it to do. My body starts to rebel. I haven’t thrown up yet but that is coming if I can’t regain my self-control. The acid is already trying to give my guts a swirly. And that won’t be all I am doing. It’s embarrassing to have my digestive track betray me. I am so tired of the weakness I feel.

It wasn’t always like this. Even a year ago it wasn’t like this. But after the tests came back and we found out it wasn’t my fault after all we weren’t able to get pregnant, things changed. At first he was shattered. Then he was angry and insisted on trying another doctor. I was willing. But by the fourth doctor he finally said … allowed … what he’d been thinking all along to escape his mouth in the consultation room, “It must be her fault. It can’t be my fault.”

The doctor recommended counseling. In hindsight I think he was worried more for me than for Dustin. Lots of stories in the news. Lots of people our age “in counseling.” I’d been homeschooled, lived in Florida, and as a result hadn’t been forced to take the vaccine by my parents. My dad was military and had taken the vax as had my mother because she did tutoring for the school district. My younger brother was supposed to have avoided the vax but apparently it had been in one of his other vaccines that he needed to go to sports camp. I’m pretty sure my parents didn’t realize it. I know they wouldn’t have approved of it. My brother was vax-sensitive and could only have one vax at a time; no combos. The lawyers sure brought that up. Turns out a lot of kids got a dose of the vax without anyone realizing it because it had been in another vax they had taken.

They tried to blame the illness that took my immediate family away from me on the fact that we were “rebellious” and hadn’t gotten the necessary vaccinations and boosters. Or they tried that until all the other stuff came out that they were vax’d and … never mind. My mom didn’t even really die of the vax or the illness, but of a cancer that they’ve since determined was “sped up” somehow by the vax, perhaps even caused by it but that was quickly shut down by the government. How they missed it with all the other testing that was going on I have no idea. The medical personnel blamed the hospital administration, the administration blamed the poor record's office, the record's office blamed poor record keeping by the medical personnel. However it happened, there were gaps in their health records that were supposed to be turned over for the depositions. The gaps were never explained to the satisfaction of anyone, but that didn't matter, and no one got in trouble for it ... legally or professionally. We were all expected to just move along since there wasn't anything to see. The fact that a lot of other lawsuits were in process or in the works may have played a role in that.

I never got sick, not even the damn sniffles. I’m not sure if that was the lack of vax or just dumb luck. I’ve never danced on anyone’s grave claiming one thing or the other. Hurts too much even now, a dozen years on. My maternal grandparents, who became my de-facto guardians, lived to see me graduate high school. I started college but never finished, just didn’t seem any point in it. I sold my first book in one of my YA series before I was a freshman in high school by self-publishing in digital format and everything has just grown from there. I still mostly self-publish but I’ve had plenty of offers by the big publishing houses, I just don’t want to lose control of my own stories. As it is I must be extremely careful where I sell my books because of their digital format, it’s possible for the sellers to “change without notice” any part of the book that doesn’t ascribe to the current standards.

It is very difficult to find any of the classics in their original form. Even books like Dante’s Inferno and Shakespeare’s Othello have gotten slaughtered. About the only thing that isn’t treated to post-publication editing are books ghost written by AI. Too bad those aren’t treated to some pre-publication editing. They often read like someone that doesn’t speak English as their first language. Unfortunately, they are often as bad regardless of what language they are translated into. Even still you must be very careful.

These days all I offer is a redirect from other sites. They come to my website that I house on my own secure servers. Each sale comes with a clause that states by purchasing and/or reading the book or doing any kind of review, that person or business or organization accepts any and all warnings and stipulations for age appropriateness and content including language, terminology and … Dear Lord, the length of the stupid warning is ridiculous but thus far has proven iron clad. So much so that people who have tried to screw with me over it wind up paying my legal fees though thus far I have chosen not to go after them civilly. Maybe I should have but it just wasn’t worth it to me then. Now I think I could quite easily intentionally shred and bankrupt those that try and steal my livelihood from me.

I’m twenty-five and I’ve published over forty books. And they are my work, not group think or AI as some people have theorized. You don’t even want to know how many more are on external hard drives that I haven’t published yet. Some are complete, some are in pieces, but they are all mine, and I must protect them. I must keep them there to keep people from stealing them if I had them in the iCloud.

I had that happen once. It was like finding out a child I had given birth to had been kidnapped, tortured, and murdered for the enjoyment of some sick pedo bastards that took my characters and created relationships between them that had absolutely nothing to do with what I had envisioned. That’s when I learned some things and met some people. It wasn’t nice but those “people” helped me. And I learned to speak using one set of words despite having feelings that warranted a different set of words. I had to deal with being called “transphobic” and an enemy to the social rights of the LBGTQ+ community and lots of other untrue things simply because I objected to their infringement on my intellectual property, to it being stolen and used in someone else’s fantasy and for their financial enrichment. I finally got them … showed what they were really doing, what they’d done to others, what their personal proclivities were, the grooming and all the other disgusting stuff. They went to jail for that, not for what they did to me. But I wasn’t the last author, script writer, song writer, artist to use that strategy. It didn’t work every time, but it worked enough that they were more cautious. Then again, so am I. I am one of the ones that can afford to be. Not everyone can say that. And I hate that the hammer had to fall on innocent fanfiction writers. That part makes me ill. Unfortunately, fanfic can be just as nasty as the others that do it purposefully. And sometimes you can’t be nice. That’s simply the way things are these days.

Just like these days not everyone can say they are fertile. The virus was hit or miss. So was the vax. There’s enough evidence that the virus/vax is the cause for the worldwide fertility issues. But there’s also enough reasonable evidence that it may not be. That’s where things stood with Dustin and I a week ago. We were trying to work through our emotions and having our life plans take a nosedive off the edge of the world. Trying to see if there were alternatives because for some there are starting with IVF since the fault did not lie with my plumbing or ability to produce eggs. The fault didn’t necessarily lie in his sperm but in the sperm fluid. There were … things for lack of a better scientific word … in the fluid that attacked eggs. It sounds like science fiction; nothing like I would even imagine much less write. It also pointed toward intentionality in a way that nothing else I had ever heard until that time.

But I had no idea where Dustin stood. None. I knew he was angry. I knew he was in a counseling group trying to grapple with his feelings and what he could do with them. I welcomed these people into my home for Pete’s sake. Thank God that Dustin had ignored all the security measures that I’d added to the house at my editor’s insistence. Thank God that Dustin hadn’t really taken anything I did seriously. He was the gym rat. He was the tough guy. He looked and played the part for his family’s business. Golden Boy. Pretty Boy. But not really as smart as he thought he was … or that I gave him credit for being. I was as bad as his mother I suppose. Completely and utterly stupid on my part. I was intentionally blind and didn’t see because I didn’t want to see, because I was too involved in the latest plot to see that my husband was little more than a character I’d written for a story, and perhaps a lot less. Could I have done something or been different? Of course. I’m just not sure if that would have changed things.

In hindsight I am grateful that he only looked the part, and his talents were never intellectual in nature. I don’t mean to sound cruel, even now. I liked the part he played. It used to be a joke he had. He was brawn and I was brains. His “joke” wasn’t always flattering, but I didn’t see it at the time. He really did think that his brawn made him the better person. My brains made me the useful idiot so he could continue the life he was born for whether I wanted to see it his way or not. I’ve had to face a lot, nearly too much, in a very short period.

And thank God he never even really understood how well I was doing financially because we’d always kept our finances separate – at the instance of his parents who for some bizarre reason thought I was marrying their son for their money. Every year they wanted me to sign a new marriage contract saying that I would never go after Dustin or his family’s business regardless of the duration of our relationship or any potential offspring regardless of how they came about.

They hacked my editor off the second year we were married and since she had arranged for a lawyer for me that year, she got it written in that Dustin nor any of his family could touch any of my assets either. They laughed but let it fly. Last year they had a new lawyer, one that got curious, and who took a closer look at our financial arrangements. By then it was too late. Cousin of Dustin’s or not, I refused to budge at the insistence of my lawyer. It was the fourth year for that particular contract, and I wasn’t letting Dustin’s parents rewrite a doggone thing. I let the lawyers haggle it out. That’s what they were paid to do after all. Mine said if they tried to force a change that they’d change more than a few things including how much of Dustin’s estate I got since we were going on six years of marriage.

His parents hated me even more, if that was possible. They always put on a good face in public but in private … uh … nope. Then when it came out that Dustin was the one that was infertile, Dustin was in for a shock. He was the one that got cut out of his parents’ will except for a small percentage that they couldn’t change because it had been set up by his paternal grandparents. When his brother and sister were also looking at being infertile, someone slipped a mental disk or something and the Harrington family decided to throw in with the companies that promised a solution to the worldwide infertility issues. They wanted me to participate but my lawyer, a paranoid woman that believed the worst of everyone and hated my in-laws more than they hated me, who owned more tinfoil than the Reynold’s Corporation, all but begged me not to. Thank God I listened.

I tried to not listen to her about Dustin’s new friends when she started nagging at me a few months ago. But eventually I did some digging of my own and realized that my lawyer, while not completely right, wasn’t wrong either. I had just left her office where she’d had a friend from some media organization come to help me get through the last bit of an adjustment reaction by piling on even more original documentation.

I found out later that, in return, I had inadvertently given them the last few pieces they needed to make their case in court. Driving home I noticed a car following me. The paparazzi occasionally does stupid crap like that and the book I had just released was the cap on a series and introducing a new one at the same time and it was already climbing the charts. The lawyers had warned me, and I was prepared; I already had a plan, one that I had practiced enough that not even Dustin realized what I was doing.

I went through the back entrance of our gated community and through the “Valley of the Cameras” that the HOA had installed as a “perk” for the people that lived there. Then I hit the panic button and the van – who somehow got through the gate without a key code – got caught by the pop-up tire stops and trying to avoid them they hit the concrete filled steel posts. Two security vehicles stayed with the creeps that had been following me and one followed me home. Instead of just driving away, he waited for me to get inside. Because he was in an unmarked car, Dustin’s friends made the mistake of thinking he was one of their compatriots since he pulled across the driveway “preventing me from escaping.” They didn’t wait until I was inside.

He saw them pull me inside, called for back up, called the cops, and he didn’t prevent me from escaping, he prevented them. I fought with skills Dustin hadn’t warned them I had and made it to the panic room that Dustin had forgotten the password for. Even had he known I hit the button that immediately allowed me to change the code for just in case. What a mess. I was so busy controlling the bleeding from the cut on my arm … they’d been trying to remove the homing beacon chip … that I didn’t see Dustin come on screen and start trying to open the door using passwords that were old as Methuselah. It did tell me, once I got to look at copies of the evidence, that he was a willing participant, and I hadn’t fully been willing to believe that until that point.

The Independent AI Judge they were arraigned in front of decided they were a flight risk and none of them, including Dustin, were getting bail until passports and other miscellaneous documents were seized and a sizable bond was given to the court. And not even then after it was discovered they were part of a human trafficking ring kidnapping so-called “Pure Blood Fertiles.” Insanity.

So, here I sit. My surreal life playing out on national television. Dustin’s family doing everything but the Ballroom Blitz to seize my assets and claim that I was just trying to get publicity for my books and that I had framed their son and … blah, blah, blah.

I am so over it. I found out that Dustin … never mind, that is his right. So long as he doesn’t try to do it to kids then whatever. Of course when one of his cousin’s kids claimed a few things yesterday on national broadcast news … yeah … Dustin’s parents don’t know where to look or what to do at this stage of this pathetic farce of a story that not even my warped imagination could come up with.
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 2​


“Samantha …" I said with a tired sigh.

“Keegan … are you sure you are going with Busby? Why not go back to your maiden name?”

“Keegan Busby has been my pen name since I started writing in middle school. I’ve already explained that. It came from a name generator app. What? You really think I should suddenly start using Keath Bellamy? My parents and grandparents would understand. No one has called me Keath since my grandparents passed, and I haven’t used Bellamy nearly as long. Family name or not I’m tired of the grief I get over it. I don’t even know that I’d answer to it at this point. I’m certainly not going to let those crazy people Dustin started hanging out with get ahold of it.”

“They might anyway. You didn’t hide it that deep.”

“Deep enough. All my legal docs say Keegan and since I’m giving up the name Harrington, I might as well just go with Busby and be done with it.”

“Now don’t get angry,” my long-suffering lawyer slash friend said.

“I’m not, at least not at you. I’m … just tired. Tired of all of it. Today marks six months. I just wish they would shut up and leave me out of it. I’m not the big fish here. No one contested the divorce. There were no assets to separate because he had his crap and I had mine, and all the property was mine because I kept it in an LLC and revocable Trust like I’ve done everything else all along since the day I turned eighteen at Granddaddy’s brother’s insistence. Nothing like having an Estate Planner in the family. Hah.” I leaned back in the office chair trying not to let the tears flow yet again. It was time to stop that. “I’m … just tired of it all.”

Giving me a sympathetic look that was almost my undoing she said, “I know you are. Are you sure about this?”

“About the name change?”

“No,” she told me like I was being stupid on purpose, and maybe I was.

“Yes. I’m sure,” I finally responded, getting back on topic. “I go this afternoon, and the sale will close. I can’t stay in that house anymore. Even with his stuff gone – and even more that his parents took after mediation – there’s reminders around every corner. And not to make it about the money but I got twice for the house that I paid for it to start with.”

“You bought it in foreclosure from that starlet, what’s her name, that took the nosedive in Vegas when they ended her residency contract.”

I nodded, but added, “After your contact got me the deal. Thanks in case I never said it. And … thanks … for this time as well.”

She steepled her fingers and looked at me. “I know you are still angry … fine, tired … but this is a pretty crazy move.”

“You aren’t going to lecture me on crazy are you Ms. Tinfoil?”

“Ha. Ha,” she deadpanned before changing tactics. “Keegan I’m serious. Some of the people in that community are just as crazy as Dustin’s friends have turned out to be.”

I sat up and got serious. “I’m aware Sam. But I think there are going to be enough miles between me and them to live with it. I just need to get away from the threats and lies and the crazies that are out here on the West Coast. I’ve had to take the publishing machine offline which means no book sales. I have some new code being written but until everything gets a new home, I can’t turn anything back on and run all the diagnostics and beta test it.”

She started chuckling. “I shouldn’t laugh. I should be freaking outraged. I can’t believe you had that stuff hidden in the digital copies.”

I shrugged. “Sgt. Mack was my father’s best friend. He … taught me a few things before the dementia took him. Try and copy the doc? It locks you out. Try and alter the doc? It blows it up. Try and open the file with computers associated with certain agencies … including all .gov affiliates … not only does the file go bye-bye but it leaves a nice, neat little hole where your functioning hard drive used to be.”

“Like Mission Impossible.”

I rolled my eyes and then shrugged. “Yeah, without all the smoke and boom. Or warning. If you are too stupid to not believe the warning that came on the website, with the book, appeared and you agreed to before the file would even open … whatever.”

She gave one last darkly humorous snort then got back to business.
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 3​


“You’re going to let me know when you get there.”

I shook my head. “Sam, you know that isn’t how this works. I cross the bridge, and all lights go out until I decide to come out.”

My lawyer and friend snorted before saying, “Dammit … this sounds like a freaking cult!”

A little surprised at her vehemence I reminded her, “You didn’t say that not that many months ago when you introduced me to these people.”

Still irritated she said, “Yeah, and I’ve changed my mind about more than a few things in this life.”

There was one thing I wouldn’t let her do. I said, “Stop trying to take responsibility for my choice … my right to choose. Besides, you own a property in The Community as well.”

“Investment purposes,” she grumbled. “I’m too old to get preggers.”

“You aren’t too old to get harvested,” I said, referring to the fact that a lot of so-called purebloods otherwise known as people that don’t have any of the viral markers in their blood, were being kidnapped and having tissue harvested. Some so completely that the only way they could be identified is by any mitochondrial DNA that got left behind. Suddenly I said, “Come with me.”

She looked at me in surprise and then softened perceptibly. “Can’t Chickadee. You know my old man would die alone.”

“But …”

“He was a real bastard when I was a kid but … he’s sorry. Maybe his sorry comes a little late in the game but I believe him. I couldn’t live with myself if I turned my back on the only man that I was absolutely sure loves me, maybe the only one that ever has.”

Ugh. Understanding and agreeing with Samantha were two different things but she had the same rights I did.

She added, “Hopefully the world waits to blow up until after my dad dies. If it does? Well, you may just see me take up residence in The Community after all.” She handed me a purse of all things as I started to leave. It looked like one of those high-end fashionable mini backpacks. “Go to the ladies’ room before you go to the closing. Watch being followed. Make sure no mirrors get a view. Happy birthday, Merry Christmas, and all the rest all wrapped into one. You’ve always been a good kiddo Chickadee.”

She all but pushed me out the office door. Good thing as we were both on the edge of showing we were a little close for just professional courtesies. I’d been a version of a kid she’d never had and never would, and she turned into a mother figure despite the idea nearly horrifying her.

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Once in the ladies’ room and safely ensconced in a stall I wanted to say, “You’ve got to be freaking kidding me.” I couldn’t. I also couldn’t laugh either though part of me wanted to. The purse was really one of the new mini-Faraday cages and it held a couple pieces of electronics, including a slim line tablet and external hard drive, and a tracker and eavesdropper detector. She’d also converted some of my assets to nontraceable ‘hard assets’ that I could use to trade for whatever I needed. Basically, a way out of Neverland. Oh Samantha, you know me too well.

If writing had done nothing else for me, it gave me the chance to research things and situations as well as talk to people that most never even realized existed outside of a scifi story or spy novel. It helped me to keep most of my stories at least grounded in some type of reality no matter how far-fetched the plots occasionally seemed. Between writing, research, the things that had happened in my life, and Samantha, I had what I considered a healthy paranoia. I thought I had been acting on it. Then the day that Dustin destroyed my life, or came close to it, and that “healthy” paranoia would occasionally slip sideways.

The Community is actually more than one location. It is more like a series of locations, of safe havens, sanctuaries, where fertiles and those in danger of being harvested for parts can live with a minimum of danger. They don’t promise complete security, but more peace of mind than what a “Pure Blood” would get in other settings. In some areas it is like a balkanization because whole States were participating and in others The Community was helping people to escape and where they went I’m still not high up enough the food chain to know. Not sure I want to know beyond the fact I might be called on to hide people as they transit to their new locations. That was part of the deal. Some States who are finding they are losing all their nominally called “pure bloods” (I hate that term) are now declaring that practice a form of human trafficking though there are no children involved and people are moving of their own free will.

The Community has a very strict membership requirement. You and all members of your household must be the euphemistically called “pure bloods.” There’s other things like mandatory blood donation and bi-monthly health screenings. One of the biggies is any kind of wound (no matter how minor) or infection (again, no matter how minor) must immediately be reported. That part is kind of freaky but given what I’ve come to learn, some from The Community leadership and some from my own research, the freakiness is understandable; and for me, at an acceptable level.

Another bit is that nothing comes into The Community or its members without being pre-screened first. In addition to the screening, everything must sit in “quarantine” before going through yet another screening before being delivered to your residence. Because of this, there can be delays in food and medication deliveries, so everyone is encouraged – though admittedly not required – to have a minimum of a six-month cushion on their personal supplies. That is, in part, why it has taken me over two months to prepare to move into what will be my new home despite having owned the property almost since the day of the final divorce decree.

Not every Community location is the same. There is a huge difference between some of them. Some sub-communities are very primitive; bunker in the ground and little to no access to “modern conveniences” kind of primitive. My understanding is there are more of these locations than you might expect. Or maybe not so surprising given the supposed personality traits and life experiences of the ones that choose to live that way. They aren’t completely restricted to socializing with similarly living people, and there is a way to trade to a different living situation at some point, but moving around too much is not recommended to the point of being frowned upon by The Community monitors.

The entire “monitor” business bothers me, but I’ve come to view it as a form of security. I may be proven wrong at some point, but I’ve tried to build in my own security for just in case. First and foremost they don’t own me through a loan or mortgage. I’ve got the property, though I’ve never seen it, locked up legally so I’m the only one that can truly call it “mine” through a series of multi-member partnerships and LLCs and revocable trusts. To top it off it is all covered by a Bridge Trust. That part was a little iffy to arrange but Samantha is better than good. She put me in contact with the right off-shore law firm and then refused to have any of the details for “just in case.” There’s other things but nothing is fool-proof. I’ve done what I can and that’s going to have to be enough.

Primitive is far from the only lifestyle in The Community. Some subcommunities are ultra high-tech. I leaned that direction until I gave it more serious thought. While I understand and even welcome the use of modern technology, I do not want to live in some sci-fi/fantasy environment as someone else’s drone or Betty Bot. When I really looked at the sales materials for those communities, I noticed they were primarily filled with males. And every single one of them had signed up for the “Community Dating Program”. I’m sorry, the jokes almost write themselves on that one. But giving it a more serious think, my paranoia wondered if it was one of those communities that might break the security protocol before the others. Hackers and similar are not known for civil obedience. Though possibly I am overthinking things, over gaming plot possibilities.

Some subcommunities are built in old, underground Cold War silos converted to HOA-like living arrangements. Some are similar, but new, and with all the bells and whistles. And then some are expensive high rise apartment buildings. I tried that lifestyle in the early days of my marriage, befor and while Dustin enjoyed it, I did not. I can see the appeal, especially for people that are socially inclined, but not for me. They do have the advantage of having on-site medical facilities and experimental departments such as hydroponics and non-traditional energy development. But for all their bells and whistles they just didn’t fit me.

Then there are other locations that would remind you of suburbia. These locations are primarily for families with children. There is an educational program that sounds a lot like in-home, virtual school but with the opportunity to come together at various times of the month for extracurricular activities and social opportunities. There are even accredited collegiate programs. Again however, that setting didn’t appeal to me. Wrongly or not, they reminded me too much of a setting in one of my dystopian series. No thank you.

Some locations have larger lots, appear very similar to where I was living in LA, and are usually in or near the previous type community. There are definitely different socioeconomic levels, but another Community Rule is that there will not be any social engineering or discrimination allowed. Communities will grow until their racial/ethnic make up is the same as the averages in the country. At a rough estimate that is 60% white, 20% Hispanic, 6% Asian, 12% Black, and the remainder in other and/or multi-racial population. I think they are trying to control things too much to seem “normal” but again, if you make a choice to live in suburbia or a high-rise type of community, you are buying into all their rules.

And then there are extremely rural settings that are arranged for those of us that just want to be left the frick alone. In the end, I’ve decided that is my preference. I only have a small idea of what my new home looks like. The floor plan is unique to the environment I chose … Georgia mountains. That’s where I was raised before I moved to the West Coast to join Dustin and his family … and that’s where I was making my money in LA. Now I want … need … out. I feel too exposed and no one seems to understand real privacy out here.

It has been a rush, but I finally pulled it off and not even Samantha knows everything. First thing I did was I had all my belongings from my family shipped so they could make it through quarantine and be at the location before I arrived. I never brought them with me to LA, so it was just a matter of ordering the Storage Pods everything was in shipped to new drop point … for quarantine.

Next, I traded in my around town EV for a classic multi-fuel 4x4 cybertruck that I hope won’t look out of place once I get where I’m going … a rendezvous point north of Atlanta. I got the cybertruck from … let’s just say, a guy I know. He caters to the celebrity crowd. Stainless steel panels, bullet proof glass, built for off-road adventuring. But this one had also seen some hard usage and didn’t look spiffy. It looked like how I felt, rode hard and hung up wet multiple times. It wasn’t cheap obviously but what it was, was part of the current retro fad for vehicles. Most cybertrucks weren’t much more than shells of what they started out being back when they first came on the market. This one wasn’t too much different except I wasn’t making it look showroom snazzy. Most people would assume it was like any other beater out there. That’s what they’ll get for assuming. What it had that wasn’t obvious? The stainless steel panels had a type of clear coat that made it “disappear” to most radar. A favorite of the drug cartels and middle eastern princes that liked to show off their high end sports cars. It also had a buttload of antitheft features, and more bells and whistles than I hope to ever need but you never know. They guy I was buying it from had gotten from an auction. It was already beat to heck and barely street legal. He only cleaned it up enough to make it look road worthy to keep the cops from pulling me over. I was going to be driving across the country rather than flying and my paranoia suggested that “better safe than sorry” be a mantra to hold onto.
 

beaglemama

Senior Member
Thank you, Kathy! I'm glad you've found some time to write again. I'd much rather read a new story from you that makes you happy than to have you beating your head against the wall, trying to force yourself to finish something that's frustrating you for our sake.
 

seraphima

Veteran Member
Sooo, 'she might be required to hide people who are escaping', she bought a truck that looks like an old beater but is the James Bond new version extraordinaire, she's driving across the country to her new home she has never seen, and there have been crazy 'pureblood' hunters after her before, and her rich former inlaws hate her and are on board with the pureblood hunters. Wow! Please keep writing!
 

Dumb Blonde

Contributing Member
Sooo, 'she might be required to hide people who are escaping', she bought a truck that looks like an old beater but is the James Bond new version extraordinaire, she's driving across the country to her new home she has never seen, and there have been crazy 'pureblood' hunters after her before, and her rich former inlaws hate her and are on board with the pureblood hunters. Wow! Please keep writing!
That about sums it up.
Please write some Moar soon Kathy!
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 4 (Part 1)​


Those two things out of the way I started going through everything I had near me, deciding what I was keeping and what I was donating and then packed it up and shipped it to quarantine as well. I also did my best to avoid any contact with the ex in-laws. Their hubris was breathtaking. After everything they had said and done during my marriage, as well as what has come afterwards, they still think I owe them something. There was no way I was getting involved in any “movement” they were involved in. No projects, no media blitz, no nothing. And when they tried to use my name and likeness in one of the commercials for the Research and Fertility Clinic the media company got a nice little zinger of a notice that if they didn’t take it down immediately I’d bring enough legal action against them to scare the hell out of anyone they attempted to use for any project from there on out. Needless to say, by way of a proxy, I got a letter of apology and “it won’t happen again without face-to-face …” etc etc. I don’t think I was the only one that tried to get railroaded into just “helping out” with advertising. And gossip had it that those that did remain got handsomely compensated for their time and effort. <snort> Good luck collecting. Legal expenses from Dustin’s troubles alone were heading into the seven figure level.

I wasn’t interested in “compensation.” I was just done with it and was starting to get a funny feeling about the entire post-marriage situation. Dustin has been buried deep. No news on him. And yes, despite everything I do continue to try and hear any news or even gossip about him. Not for the reasons most might think but … six years of marriage went up in smoke but the emotions that once were there created a vacuum and … I’ll admit here what I wouldn’t to Samantha or anyone else. I’m angry, confused, and even sad. I don’t understand how things could have happened that did, and part of me needs to understand, needs to find the reason(s) so it doesn’t happen again assuming I do ever take such a risk again, for friendship or otherwise.

I remember after the immediate grief of my family dying that I was driven to try and to understand then as well. Without telling my grandparents (because I didn’t want to get stuck in grief counseling like some people suggested) I learned about a lot of the hypothetical results of the vaccines. Most of it didn’t have any real research behind it beyond the “preponderance of evidence” type of theories. One of those things supposed possibilities was an effect on mental health or a change in personality. I’m not sure how you would prove that if you didn’t have a before and after window into a person’s psyche but it’s made me think.

When I wasn’t packing and trying to figure out just how and when my marriage started failing, I was using some of the research I did for a few of my stories to take the next step in leaving my current life and lifestyle. Six months of food? Try twelve and then I made it twenty-four as I went along. Long term storage food is what I would need for it to make it through quarantine. I also ordered a commercial grade freeze dryer. I mean if I was going to assert my crazy, I might as well do it up correctly.

Not to mention I needed a way to get a lot of my money out of California. The State was tracking every digital-coin and asset that left a bank. Samantha had been funneling most of my assets out of the State and into “safe” investments since she took me on as a client, but she could only do so much. Cali needed every penny it could scrape together … old style fiat, digital currency, cryptocurrency, gift cards, physical digi-dollars, gold and silver certificates … didn’t matter, they took a piece of everything. And if you tried to hide anything they simply froze what you had, placed a lien on out of state assets, and then took you to court to force you to reveal what my grandfather would have called every jot and tittle you could lay claim to while also getting search warrants for everything from personal property, autos, security boxes, and then any place else you might hide something including the properties of friends and relatives, even those out of state and rumors were swirling they were working with foreign governments for any locations outside of this country. Canada was doing that as well and the Cali-Canada agreements are working their way through court to try and get them thrown out but it isn’t looking good. Add to that taxes were high and on everything, but it still wasn’t enough, and the state was in a deep hole and were willing to use bodies to try and fill it with.

My first order, after the freeze dryer and all the gizmos for it that could need replacing at some point, was a six-month supply kit that provided 2500 calories per day from the top-rated company in the industry. I suppose I could have ordered everything from them, but I wanted to spread it around (to try and hide what I was doing was my rationale) and I wanted more variety than the first company provided. I purchased another six-month supply kit from the next company down the list but only got about half the calories; but it added variety. So, I was supposedly set for one year. Maybe.

From there I went for variety in the #10 can size. I started with freeze dried proteins … beef, chicken, whole egg powder, bean burgers, peanut butter powder, cheese shreds, taco meat, refried beans, beans of every variety I could find, etc. I added more dairy with powdered milk and all the other powdered this, that, and the other that would help such as sour cream and butter, yogurt and ice cream. I’d grown up on the stuff with my grandparents and still preferred it to the watered-down, plastic-flavored crap they were selling in the stores these days. There were plenty of shelf-stable dairy options compared to when I was growing up, and I got more than just a sampling of anything that tickled my fancy. A couple of cases of canned cheese and canned butter reminded me of what my grandparents had rotated through every year. I also added canned cheeses like nacho and queso blanco. Then all the veggies and fruits I could find in varieties of freeze dried, dehydrated, powdered, and canned. Same for soups and stews. I got cases of the stuff and had it shipped to a drop point assigned to me. Most of it was freeze dried and dehydrated but I didn’t turn my nose up at canned beef, canned chicken, canned pork, or canned ground beef. There were also canned exotic meats like bison and elk. And just because I was in a mood I ordered summer sausage to go with the cheese and “whine” I was doing as I tried to avoid a few people that were persona non grata after the whole Dustin disaster … beef and venison, beef and elk, beef and bison, venison and cheddar, wild boar, and the one that I was jonesing to try as a welcome-to-your-new-home gift to myself was called elk and cheddar burgundy. I made a note that on my cross-country trip I needed to pick up plenty of crackers to eat it all with because I was worried that had I ordered them for shipping I would have wound up with nothing but crushed crumbs and cracker dust.

I ordered Spam by the case lot, in all its many flavors; regular, low sodium, hickory, bacon flavored, turkey flavored, teriyaki, and I even ordered some of the spicy and jalapeno flavored varieties. Spam had been one of my father’s favorite things – considered it a food group all its own – and I still had the recipe book my mother had that used Spam as the main ingredient. From there I veered off into things like canned hams, canned chili, canned stews, canned roast beef, canned turkey, canned bacon, canned sloppy joe meat, canned tuna, canned salmon, other canned seafood like canned shrimp and crab and clams, shelf stable meatballs, canned chicken a la king, the ubiquitous Vienna sausages and potted meat and Beanee Weenees, canned hash (sausage and roast beef varieties mainly), and even canned tamales which had been a favorite camping food when I would go fishing with my grandfather. There was pepperoni, jerky, beef sticks, canned meat sandwich spreads, all treats (junk food) my grandparents taught me to enjoy on the hikes they took me on to help me deal with my grief (and theirs). And beyond that I ordered several wheels of cheese, hoping that I’d have someplace cool and rodent free to store them in. Then I thought I had a brilliant (aka sneaky) idea and went to ordering holiday and special occasion gift baskets, the kind you order for clients or employees thinking I could order a variety that wouldn’t look suspicious even if they did all go to the same mail drop location.[1][2][3][4][5][6][7]

I got off track for nearly an entire night and in addition to the gift baskets I ordered cases of shelf stable juices and flavorings to have more than just water to drink. Then I found canned bread like B&M brown bread, canned crackers (both soda and pilot), and freeze dried 12-grain bread. While placing that order I nearly gave myself a concussion with a dope slap for forgetting pancake mix, muffins mixes, pizza dough mix, biscuit mix, and cornbread mixes.

Trying to bring myself back around to more common-sense ordering, I reminded myself not to neglect the staple items. Rice of all varieties (white, brown, black, wild, short grain, long grain, jasmine, etc), wheat, oatmeal, cornmeal, pastas (of every shape and size), lo mein and ramen noodles, rice noodles, and all the grains that I’d grown to like when I’d been exposed to the new lifestyle of the rich and those not wanting to be famous, but healthy. From there I hit other online sites. Condiments were important … salt[8] (plain, kosher, sea, and flavored), pepper (black, white, lemon, garlic, you name it), honey (liquid and crystallized), sugar in various forms from raw to ultra powdered, ghee, marinades, salad dressings, ketchup, different kinds of mustard, Miracle Whip (no mayo thank you very much), jars of different kinds of salsas (mild, fruit-flavored, black bean medium, hot, and lava, guacamole, etc), oils (olive, coconut, avocado, corn, canola, popcorn oil, etc), hot sauces[9], BBQ sauces[10], and generally anything that caught my fancy.

Yes I am getting a little ridiculous and silly with my ordering but it is in direct proportion to how much I need to distract myself from the constant barrage of attempted communications from suddenly interested parties in my well-being. They couldn’t reach me directly but I continue to keep a toe in the world through proxy servers and the like. I use one of the gold-standard of VPN services and I’m glad I do because I’ve had a few people ask my what on earth I’m doing XXXXX. I need to come “home” so we can get together. Revealing that at least one of them was tracking my ISP, or attempting to. That’s normally a paparazzi kind of move but it appears that for some reason I’ve become “popular.” I know I used to make money for people and I suspect that it some of it. The economy here in Tinsel Town keeps people on the edge and I’ve been bugged for years to sell the rights to some of my stories so they could turned into movie fodder. Nope. Not interested in pulling a Stephen King. It may have made the man wealthy, but some of those movies also made him a laughing stock for how corny some of them turned out to be.

The list of brands I decided to try once I got hooked online shopping too late at night when I should have been sleeping went on and on; Mountain House, Wild Zora, Peak2, Green Belly, Ziba, Trail Butter, Backpacker’s Pantry, Good-To-Go, Readywise, Nomad Nutrition, Packit Gourmet, Trailtopia, Enertia Trail Foods, Starkist, and many others. I must have ordered a year’s worth of trail bars and trail mixes in more varieties than you could have ever considered possible. I also ordered a lot of freeze dried trail meals from the same companies.

One night I got into an international food ordering spree starting with all the shelf stable Mexican[11] food I could come up with. Then Asian[12], French[13], British[14], Hawaiian[15], and any other place that had an online international market. And from there I went a little nuts; okay, I went a little more nuts than I’d already gotten. However, when I debated ordering a couple of cans or full cases of canned reindeer or a case of shepherd’s pie mix, I knew I was in danger of tipping over the edge and if I wasn’t careful there would be nothing but an echo in what I once considered a substantial wallet.

I started feeling like I was living one of those impossible end of the world stories where the main character either finds a massive stash, wins the lotto and then sets up their own compound, or just gets lucky on their salvaging runs. Well, I was none of the above. I work hard for my money, and I’ve been doing it since before I was in high school. I’ve survived what life has thrown at me including eventually losing all my family to death and circumstances, as well as the family I thought I was building with Dustin. And now the world is going crazy and has me in the crosshairs just because I’m one of the so-called fertile “pure bloods.” However, what is the point of making all that money if I’m not around to spend it or can’t spend it on a life out of the limelight with some security thrown in? There’s no one looking out for me … okay, scratch that and remember Samantha and people like her … but I’m on my own now, and it is time to choose money in the bank or security in the field. Checking my shrinking bank balance, you can guess what I chose even if I did moderate the crazier items I bought … at least sort of.

I finally just said screw it and went back to spending the money whether I knew there’d be more where that came from or not, but trying to keep in mind that the “or not” was a real possibility.

I have two vices, and I am not prepared to give either of them up … yet. I’m not a coffee drinker but I always had it on hand for those that did. What my grandmother would have called being a good hostess. Well, I didn’t plan on having guests, but I put a supply in anyway just in case. What I did stock up on was tea[16][17][18]. The good stuff … looseleaf, bags, instant, real tea leaves, herbal teas in a wide variety of flavors, some for pleasure and some for health, some decaf and some with enough oomph to keep you flying for days on one cup.
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 4 (Part 2)

My other vice is cultured crème. Haagen-Dazs brand makes one that I’m kinda addicted to at certain times of the month. Not chocolate. Nope. I’m just weird that way. My mother and grandmother were both major chocoholics. Me? Ugh. Nope. Nope, nope. I look at chocolate and miniature Mt. Vesuvius erupt on my face, neck, and back. Painful ones. White chocolate is okay, so is carob, but it doesn’t really do it for me when I’m jonesing. But yeah, cultured crème. Wow. And I am not giving that up.

I did order some chocolate but more for cooking and baking. I also ordered a deep supply of various flavored baking chips in case I might get in the mood for making cookies (Baker’s, Ghirardelli, Tollhouse, in too many flavors to mention). And to top it off I ordered a couple gallons of Hershey’s chocolate syrup (and the acne cream I would need just to handle the containers of the stuff).

There is one problem that I’m trying to work my head around; fresh foods aren’t going to be easy to come by. I’ll get a shipment once a month so long as it is available, assuming I can afford it by that point. Everything else is going to be fermented, canned, dried, cured, so on and so forth. Growing up on my grandparents’ small hobby farm I got spoiled and it wasn’t much different when I moved in with Dustin and into the lifestyle that he’d grown up accustomed to. What’s a girl gonna do when faced with the loss of all that? Go into research mode and figure a way around it. It treated it like finding a solution to a plot problem I had run into.

I figure until I get the lay of the land I can grow microgreens, herbs, cherry tomatoes, trellised cucumbers, and various squash which had been my grandparents primary cash crops. Going to the same companies that my grandparents had always purchased from, I ordered the seeds for those and I hope the varieties are from the correct growing zone. I’m getting more than a little hacked as far as the secrecy goes. As my grandparents were fond of mentioning, microenvironments can create problems for even the most experienced gardener and grower. Because of that I also asked if a greenhouse was feasible on the lot and was told there were materials on site. They wouldn’t go any further than that, so I ordered some Vizqueen, staples, flexible PVC pipes, drip irrigation supplies, and a few other things my grandparents kept on hand for their stuff. I know I’m missing supplies. My grandfather could pull anything that could be needed out of the supply barn or so it seems in my memories. I don’t even know if I’m going to have a shed that I can turn into a supply barn.

Once I get where I am going, I will see how feasible chickens or geese will be, or even my own domestic meat like pigs … not hogs as they are probably too big for me to deal with alone. I also enquired about a hunting license but have not received confirmation that it will be possible. It has been since high school, but I was passably good with traps since my grandfather hadn’t accepted anything less. I can also fish though it has been a while since I’ve done anything but deep-sea fishing. A lot will depend on … well, honestly, I have no idea since I haven’t seen my new home just yet. For all I know it is little more than a hole in the ground or broken-down rental cabin. There are way too many potential variables. I’d gotten a GPS and legal description for my ownership protection but that’s as far as it went. And yes, I know how stupid that is but that’s the way this ball is rolling.

I had to get off the worry horse, so while I was spending extravagantly on websites like herbandspice.com[19], restaurant supply companies[20], Amish bulk purchases[21], and nuts.com[22] I was figuring out how to make my own cultured crème[23] and getting the ingredients purchased in bulk.

I finally shot my wad with all the food; the drop point was unwilling to take more without extra expense. I decided as far as food went, I had way more than I would need for one person if I could grow a garden. However, when I stopped, I worried I had done a lot of panic buying but I was pretty sure I wasn’t in a panic exactly. I just didn’t want to leave much, if anything, to chance. Or get a craving I couldn’t appease. Unappeased cravings are as bad as earworms, neither of which I wanted to experience if I could help it. Then I had an idea to do similar to what my mother and grandmother had done which was have a distillery for both alcoholic and non-alcoholic beverages, but that was a project that would have to wait. I added some supplies and equipment to my order but it wasn’t very satisfying. I know there is a lot of such equipment packed up in boxes but I’m missing some things, I know I am but there isn’t time to try and figure out what it is. At that point I had to force myself to stop and move on.

I was told by my “field contact” to start focusing on housewares and things that would keep me from going bonkers in case the alone that I wanted turned out to be a more difficult adjustment than expected, unless I was going to graze my way through every day. If that was the case, I needed to include pants with elastic waist bands. He actually said that rather matter of factly. I got the distinct impression that Mr. Contact – and yes, that’s what I was instructed to call him – was not a fan of the female gender. Nothing was overt, but nothing was hidden either. The tone was clear … he thought I was hormonal with a side of being three fries short of a happy meal and should have been spending some of the money I had on counseling. I didn’t allow his opinion to thwart my plans – at least after I was finished writing out a real hiss fit of an email (that I never sent) to bleed off some of my irritation. I just steamrolled on through to the next bunch of orders.



[1] https://www.gourmetgiftbaskets.com
[2] The Gift Basket Store: Last Minute Gift Baskets
[3] Gift Baskets & Crates | Williams Sonoma
[4] Amazon.com : Food & Beverage Gifts
[5] Shop — Jasper Hill Farm
[6] https://www.wisconsincheeseman.com
[7] Hickory Farms: Gift Baskets & Specialty Gourmet Food Gifts
[8] Spices and Seasonings at Wholesale Prices - Shop My Spice Sage
[9] Pepper Palace - From Wild to Mild!
[10] BBQ Sauces
[11] Mexican food and Mexican recipes at MexGrocer.com
[12] https://www.sayweee.com
[13] https://my-french-grocery.com/
[14] https://www.britishislesonline.com/food/
[15] https://www.onlyfromhawaii.com/
[16] https://www.republicoftea.com
[17] https://www.lipton.com/us/en/our-teas/
[18] https://twiningsusa.com/collections/all-teas
[19] https://mountainroseherbs.com/catalog/herbs-spices/bulk
[20] https://www.webstaurantstore.com/
[21] https://amishcountrystoreonline.com/bulk-foods/
[22] https://nuts.com/
[23] https://fromscratchfarmstead.com/how-to-make-cultured-cream/
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 5 (Part 1)​


I started with the basics. (Bwahahaha) I’d covered food as thoroughly as I could at that point (more thoroughly than I may have needed to given the irritation in Mr. Contact’s voice). Next biggie, and possibly should have been the first, was water and other drinks, apart from the planned distillery. The location supposedly came with a built-in water filtration system as it got all its water from a cistern that was filled by a local water source. When I first learned of that, it gave me pause. I wanted to know more about the house, but I wouldn’t until I arrived. What filled that cistern? Mountain creek, stream, rain run-off, spring? Each of those had their own potential problems and that included pollution from other people using the same source(s).

My grandfather would have said I was buying a pig in a poke, but I suppose desperate times call for desperate measures. Just to be safe I ordered a large water filter container called a Berkey that could sit on the kitchen counter and would filter the water a second time before use just to be safe. The reason I ordered that one is because it reminded me of the one that my grandfather had built[1] the year of the big drought when they started pulling grit up in the well water.

I added multiple filters for back up since I didn’t know how long the filters lasted. I also ordered a Brita filter that would take out any solids (grit) that made it through the initial filter before pouring it into the Berkey. To that order I added several water barrels that could be used as shipping containers for other things that I was buying and then once I was settled in, I could use them for additional water storage. My grandparents had always kept a couple of barrels full of water because the power in the small town they got their electricity from was notorious for going down at the least provocation … or at least the power that ran up the mountain roads did. I also ordered some water purification tablets and bleach.

I didn’t bother ordering bottled water. The filtration system on the house and the Berkey would either work or they wouldn’t. I wasn’t a fan of bottled water anyway (all those microplastics they find in that stuff). And since I didn’t know how or when I would have trash pick up (another one of those I’ll find out when I get there issues), a bunch of plastic bottles was a problem I didn’t need. I did order in some gallon jugs of water, I’m not a complete idiot, just not the small, personal bottles. I also ordered cases of my favorite flavored fizzy water in the new easy to crush cans – which actually might be a problem in storage if I’m not careful. Then I ordered several CO2 cylinders for my personal sparkling water maker[2] and the flavor drops[3] to go with it. Bubbly Blackberry is near the top of my favorite list, but Lime is a close competitor.

I ordered in a few cases of various wines and liquors despite not really drinking, specifically the very high-test stuff like Everclear that my grandmother kept on hand for her “homemades”. I could have waited until I had the distillery up and running but again, it was the hostess I was raised to be, and I knew that the cooking wines and such would eventually get used. So would the high-test stuff when I started making tinctures and the like. When Mr. Contact spotted that order, I was warned that having or developing an addiction would (not could) cause me to be evicted from The Community it caused a conversation.

“One, I don’t have an addiction, and that amount of liquor should prove I’m not drinking a bottle a day. The blasted contract already stipulates that alcohol can only be ordered every six months and it will be questioned six ways from Sunday then. I get it already. I don’t really plan on drinking much if any. But some of it is good cooking wine. Two …”

“Two?” the male voice prompted like he didn’t have time to waste.

“Two, do your records show I own the residence or not?”

I could hear some paper flipping and in surprise he said, “You paid it off.”

“Yes. I despise mortgage interest even if it is a good tax write off. What has that got to do with …”

“It means that ‘eviction’ was a poor choice of word on my part,” he admitted, surprising me. “The property is and will remain yours. You own it free and clear as much as anyone does these days. You will be responsible for all taxes and insurance and etc. and payment for such will be arranged at the time you take possession. However, you will lose your membership in The Community and the protection it affords should you break the contract.”

I snorted. “That’s been covered multiple times, and I accepted the stipulations. But for the record you could have asked. Or used those medical reports from the tests I was required to have to find out if you needed corroborating evidence for any type of addiction.”

There was a long-suffering sigh and then he asked, “Is there anything else? Are you still on the suggested timeline? You are lagging in some areas from what I see.”

After everything else was covered that was on my list, and after a few rather pointed reminders from Mr. Contact, the voice hung up rather abruptly and immaturely or not, I stuck my tongue out at the phone before getting back to business.

When I had asked about an electricity source, they said it was taken care of. No discussion. No answers beyond that forthcoming. Okay then. I did order a couple of back up cooking methods similar to what my mother and grandmother had kept on hand for when the power was down. Mostly a butane stove, plenty of canisters for it, a box oven, and an extra way to boil water if needed using fuel tabs. That was going to have to do until I could get there and scout things out. Apparently once I arrived, I would have one week to find any holes that needed to be filled for one last order to the drop point and then into quarantine and then that method of shipping would no longer be available. If I didn’t find the hole, then it would be the next cycle before I could order anything. And since I didn’t know when the next cycle would be beyond the fact it didn’t align with fresh food deliveries, I decided to be as thorough as possible before moving in.

I’m not fussy about my hygiene items except for my shaving supplies. I use a five-blade razor and good shaving cream for sensitive skin. Occasionally I use a good depilatory cream but only when shaving doesn’t thrill me for some reason or other. Gawd how Dustin used to complain about my “bandsaw legs” or the fact I refused get my legs lasered or “manicure the lawn”. Looking back there was more wrong with our marriage than just infertility, but I didn’t want to see it because I could live with the status quo. It balanced out how ridiculous I considered the amount of time and money Dustin spent on his hair and artificial, year-round California tan and blonde highlights. His money so I kept my mouth shut so he wouldn’t feel the need to discuss my money. And the fact that he just loved his Brazilian wax appointments for his gym exhibition body. Shudder. And now? I need to stop beating myself up for the failures. We were both wrong but in the end Dustin was … forget it. I’m tired of eating broken glass.
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 5 (Part 2)

Back on topic. Since the drugstore wasn’t around the corner, nor would I be making drives into some hypothetical town anytime soon after moving in, I got the good stuff that I preferred so I wouldn’t need to use as much of anything, and it would go further. This included all my hygiene items … deodorant, toothpaste, extra toothbrushes, extra hair brushes and combs, shampoo/conditioner, soap, make up (not that I wore much beyond the basics when I had to for interviews), lotions, etc. I also got things I remember my grandmother keeping on hand like Epsom salts, horse liniment, fels naptha, calamine lotion, Porter’s liniment, Bag Balm, vapor rub, plantain salve, Union Salve, Bismoline powder, wound honey, rosebud salve, jewelweed salve, castile soap, pine tar soap, charcoal soap, witch hazel, Seabreeze astringent, and all unscented when I could find them that way so when I wanted to go into the woods … assuming there were going to be woods… I wouldn’t be a bug’s idea of a buffet, or draw any other critters either (like bears). To be honest, I had requested woods, preferably mountains, but you get what you get and don’t throw a fit when you are escaping Alcatraz. The GPS made it look like the location sat in a cove near some woods, but not even Google Earth gave me a good idea of what there was. The pictures from that area were heavily shadowed from the mountains it was located between. I just hope it isn’t a Georgia version of granite filled desert; I’ve had enough of the rocky Cali landscape to last me more than a little while.

For first aid and other medical items I duplicated what the builder had put into the panic room and then went a step or two further by ordering a couple of high-end emergency medical kits as well as materials that I could study so I could use them and not just look at them on a shelf someplace. That reminded me to get an order in of medications. I had to order them from a “supplier” on the quiet and also got a supply of herbal meds to go with it. I also ordered a frickton of essential oils; for aromatherapy, topicals, and internals. Between that and all the OTC meds I got from the same source, I was hoping that base was thoroughly covered.

Light I covered with a solar generator, candles, fire starters, flashlights, solar lights, magnesium fire starters, glowsticks, matches, canned fuel, fuel tabs, lantern oil, citronella oil and candles, and just about anything else the Lehman’s and REI[4] websites had to offer. Speaking of REI, I picked up some back packing equipment as I intended to start hiking again since I knew I would need a way to stay in shape … to battle the potential need for expandable waistline pants thanks to the thought put in my head by Mr. Contact. But again, that was assuming the location was suitable.

The Lehman’s website reminded me of what I knew was in the storage boxes that had been my grandparents’. For the old oil lanterns, I purchased a supply of replacement mantles and wicks. I remembered packing a gazillion of those things, but a new supply wouldn’t hurt. Neither would a supply of long fireplace matches and waterproof quick strike matches. I had a limited amount of fuel I was allowed to order, and I’d already gotten a percentage of that filled when I ordered the butane canisters. I did what I could on kerosene and oil lamp fuel, but I also made note to possibly pick some up on my cross-country run.

I ran across some solar powered fairy lights for jars and ordered a few of them because that had been my nightlight as a child and it seemed comforting somehow. I knew there were LED candles galore – my grandmother had decorated with them at Christmas – but who knew if they still worked or not. They were never stored with their batteries still in, even the button type batteries were removed every year, but things still got old and stopped working so I ordered enough to cover a decent-sized Christmas tree and didn’t think about it beyond that. In fact, I ordered a lot of solar lights and lamps, and made a note to myself to check and see if they used batteries and if so, to add them to my “Hole” order in case I couldn’t get them beforehand.

Lehman’s also had a lot of old “Amish” health supplies that I remembered from my childhood with my grandparents who weren’t really the type to lean towards what they called “Big Pharma.” Stuff definitely wasn’t priced like cheap, flea market drugstore offerings but it did remind me of another part of The Community contract. Any medical treatment or medicines would be provided by The Community. Going to a non-Community treatment facility was verboten. In their eyes your “pure blood” status was put at risk and your membership in The Community became null and void at that point. I was rarely sick with anything more than the sniffles or the occasional Pollution Rash, and that was mostly the result of the LA air quality and what came in off the Pacific from Asia.

That is another thing I will not miss, having to wear those blasted N100 masks a couple weeks per year just to step outside the door. I still ordered some for storage. Nor will I miss the expense of those special air filters on the air conditioning system which led me to order some washable, filter material that I could cut to fit since Mr. Contact et al were still refusing to give me any particulars on the house. It is how my grandfather did things so I hope it works in this new place better than what I have been dealing with. When the El Niño winds blow here on the West Coast, you have to change those things every week where they catch all the pollution coming off China and push it across the Pacific. And washing them just doesn’t work because of the sticky, stinky gunk they catch.

Thoughts keep piling higher and deeper in my mind and I’ve got almost too many running lists of supplies to stock, equipment to order, and stuff to find that I should already have. Other things that were in my grandmother’s kitchen stuff that I need to look for is her washboards, hand-washing machine that my grandfather had made her based on the one that Lehman’s sold[5], her grain mills, the ancient paddle butter churn[6] that my grandfather had changed to stainless steel blades making it easier to sanitize, and all of her food preserving equipment. I knew there were enough jars to do anything I could want with. She and Mom had regular canning jars as well as a bunch of specialty jars and jugs[7] they’d collected and used over the years. I did put in an order of what felt like a lifetime supply of new lids and some jar rings as well as other supplies we always had to have to do what my grandmother wanted to do. (I knew what pectin was and how to spell it and use it before entering kindergarten.) I lived on that food almost exclusively after I was “evicted” from the old home place so my uncle could take possession of it. Towards the end I cried as each jar was emptied and I carefully packed it away so none would break. It wasn’t long after that I met Dustin and now I have other things to cry about but such is life. Not to mention I am tired of crying.

Most of the furniture stayed with the LA house when I opted to sell it and temporarily take up residence in this high security hotel. I didn’t want those memories, and still don’t though there are days I miss the space. And not knowing the size of the house I was moving to made me realize it was just better to stick with the furniture pieces that I’d inherited from my family. I did hear that the house was partially furnished so I decided I would just have to take it as it went. The only piece from my current life I’m really interested in keeping is my workstation that has followed me since I moved in with my grandparents. My grandfather built it for me using some furniture pieces that had belonged to my parents. I do my best thinking and writing there. The work chair is a bit beat up, but it is comfortable, and I have a chair cover for it. I ordered a couple more covers to change with the holidays or my mood. I also ordered a lot of different kind of furniture covers[8] just so I can change things up as the mood fits me. The workstation has already been packed off and writing at this ridiculous glass monstrosity I’m sitting at right now is awful, especially since I keep cracking my elbows due to the awkward height and the torture device they claim is the chair that goes with it.

Speaking of the holidays, I ordered some seasonal paper napkins and nice tablecloths to go with the dining room table to decorate like my mother and grandmother always had. I know all that stuff is still packed away, I stopped bothering after Dustin’s mother took such pains to explain how “embarrassingly plebian” it was. The woman couldn’t leave well enough alone. I left nearly all my life behind to join Dustin, I had only wanted to keep one thing, one tradition. Well, they are now out of my life, and I’m going to live and do things the way I want to and if I want to be plebian – furthermore sound plebian as I take back my colloquial accent – I will. And that also includes the way I dress. LA chic simply is not going to work if I want to live on the other side of the country.

To that end I ordered a four-season closet of clothes, not because I would be grazing and going up in sizes as Mr. Contact snarkily put it, but because most of the clothes that I had before my marriage were gone … including my wedding dress that I gave away to charity when I could finally stand to admit just how wrong I had been about Dustin and I as a couple. The dress stood for something that never existed, or at least hadn’t existed for months if not years; probably since the infertility stuff started up if not before then. I can look back now and see what a mistake our marriage had been for both of us … by both of us. But sometimes you want what you want and don’t really comprehend the eventual consequences because differences eventually become insurmountable.

My mother and grandmother sewed. I know the basics, but it has been since high school that I’ve done it, and then only because my grandmother insisted. I’m willing to relearn and maybe that’s what I’ll do on nights I can’t sleep, and the muse flips me the bird. I have a treadle sewing machine that belonged to my great great great something or other grandmother that was still getting used by my mother when she was in the mood. But my mother had also been a seamstress by trade when she wasn’t tutoring and all her fancy machines, including her quilting machine, will be meeting me at my new home. I just hope there is room for them. My grandmother’s knitting machines will also be there. I have a feeling I will have more than enough to fill my time, if not too much. All the things that I had put aside in favor of my husband and my career. The trick is going to be finding the balance. I want a new and healthier life, not a persona that resembles one on of the characters in my books.

I didn’t get rid of any of my grandmother’s kitchen things. They were just boxed up and stored beside my mother’s kitchen things. After packing my grandparents’ house up, I knew there were also boxes of both my great grandmothers’ things and probably a few things from the generations before that. I grew up in a house that had seen at least seven generations of the same family living in it. The “stuff” went to me. The house went to my uncle that subsequently sold it and the land to a developer to pay his family’s medical bills.

I’m not going to go off on a tangent about the vaccine side effects. I’m not convinced, no matter what those in The Community believe, that the extent of the problems that have been discovered was intentional by the vast majority of those involved in that conspiracy. Stupidity grows exponentially because of itself, not necessarily because of intention. Suffice it to say that more people than expected suffered and continue to suffer as they reach life’s benchmarks. And being an “elite” hasn’t insulated people from those consequences. There are enough people fighting that reality. The only one that I can say for certain affects me is the fertility health issues and that is the only issue that I can deal with. Other people, including those in my family, can’t say the same.

The entire family thing ended on a sour note for me because several members hadn’t liked that my grandparents left everything but the life estate on the physical structure of the house and the grounds to me. The fighting started even before my grandmother died, and in my mind may have been what finally caused her fatal heart attack. I’d been kept out of it up until then, but I’d known the rest of the family hadn’t agreed with them being my guardians … again because of money. What none of them knew – and I was told explicitly not to discuss with them – was that my parents’ life insurance, and the survivor benefits I received from social security, plus the income from my writing, paid for everything with sufficient left over that I gave it to my grandparents who took it and bought “physical investments” that the rest of the family wasn’t to know about. I still have those “physical investments” which is why I purchased two large gun safes and not just one.

Those “physical investments” were one of the few things that would be traveling cross country with me. My own “physical investments” that I had acquired as an adult (with Samantha’s encouragement) were added to them. They are one of several things that Dustin never cared about and ignored to the point of complete ignorance. Given the federal and state and even international restrictions on their use, they were and are mostly “hobby” or collector items, but who knows what the future holds. My jewelry, such as it is since I don’t wear much to prevent becoming a target, is another item that will be traveling with me. I also have a couple of other things that I don’t want to get caught with or become a target for.



[1] Making a Berky Type Water Filter System That Looks Good in a Kitchen
[2] SodaStream Official: Sparkling Water Makers, Carbonating Gas Cylinders
[3] Best Sparkling Water Flavors - Syrups - Drink Mixes
[4] https://www.rei.com/c/camp-kitchen
[5] Lehman's Own Laundry Hand Washer with Laundry Wringer
[6] Lehman's Original Dazey Butter Churn - USA Made
[7] Specialty Bottle - Wholesale Glass Bottles, Jars, Metal Tins
[8] https://www.amazon.com/dp/B081GQBPR...BAOUAC2JS&ref_=list_c_wl_lv_ov_lig_dp_it&th=1
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 6​


In addition to all the housewares stuff I inherited, I became the owner of all my father and mother’s guns and the same for my grandparents. They are all labeled “antiques” and “inoperable”, but they are anything but. They are, however, in pieces wrapped up in quilts mixed in with old metal tools like wrenches, plumber’s pipe cutters, large wooden planers, and pry bars in one of the antique cedar chests that had been in my grandparents’ home. Well, some of them were bonified antiques and may be inoperable but that is on paper as collector items for the estate. The ones that aren’t inoperable, I will clean and put back together once I make sure the gun safes have been delivered and installed as I requested.

I have three guns that will also be my traveling companions. The first one I bought with Samantha’s help when she introduced me to a security training expert after becoming my lawyer and realizing I was a “babe in the woods” compared to her normal clients. It was a Ruger LC9s, recommended as a woman’s security tool. The second was a Kahr CW9 and that was another one of Samantha’s recommendations a few years into my marriage when the kidnapping of celebrities for ransom had become popular and before we’d moved into the gated community. The third one is something that I’d bought after I finally admitted Dustin’s culpability in my attempted kidnapping. It is a Smith and Wesson M&P Bodyguard. Where the first two use 9mm, the third uses .38 ammo. It means carrying two types of what my grandfather euphemistically called “feed for the beasts”, but given the hidden compartments on the cybertruck that won’t be a problem. I also placed an ammo order (had to do it using a super secure VPN at an out-of-state site) to go to my new home, including some for the rifles and shotguns that I would have as soon as I put them back together.

Surprisingly Mr. Contact did not give me grief about the ammunition order. I’m fairly certain, well mostly certain, he hadn’t meant for me to hear his muttered, “Finally; one that appears to have some commonsense.” As I used to say too much for my grandfather’s patience, “Whatever.”

I didn’t want to duplicate too much as I really couldn’t remember what all was in storage that was being shipped to my new home. I did have an inventory list, but it wasn’t complete because the lawyer assisting with the probate had been friends with my grandparents, didn’t like the government, and really didn’t like my uncle or his family since he suspected what my uncle was planning to do with the property. The lawyer left out a lot of stuff that my uncle could have taken me to court over – and not just those guns – but a lot of antiques that were more valuable than they were given credit for being. I was also anxious to see if it was all there like I had packed it or if the “pre-screening” inspection caused things to be removed. I am going to hit the atomic explosion button if they “remove” my grandmother’s Rada knife collection or my father’s collection of Buck and Case knives.

Just to be on the safe side, because my memories of that time of packing and grieving are a little cloudy, I ordered new bed pillows, a mattress and box spring for the bed I would be using, as well as enough new linens of various kinds to last me a while. I also ordered all sorts of cleaning supplies – the kinds my mother and grandmother used – and things that I knew were always an irritation when they got messed up in some way, broke, used up, or couldn’t be found when I wanted them. Brooms, dustpans, mops (for wet and dry uses), good kitchen shears, non-electric vacuum for small messes, cleaning buckets, different types of scrub brushes, a couple different sizes of shop vacs, an electric stick broom, clothesline, clothesline ratchets, clothes pins, clothesline pulleys, folding drying racks, etc. ad nauseum. I knew my mother’s sad irons were packed away – remember when Dad had found them for her at an estate sale – but I ordered a decent plug-in iron in case my mother’s super-duper, never to be used on anything but her quilting projects iron no longer worked. My grandmother’s daily-use iron bit the dust a couple of years ago when Dustin threw it out saying it was a piece of antiquated junk and he preferred to send our clothes out to be laundered. It took a lot of restraint not to fight over that bit of meanness. I hadn’t because we’d just learned that the infertility was on his side, not mine, and I thought it was a small reaction on his part. It wound up being one of many “small reactions” that should have given me a window into what was going on, but that I was too afraid to look through.

Just as bad is that Dustin’s mother had insisted on a cleaning service as I’m fairly certain she didn’t trust me to not be an embarrassment to her son. I can’t tell you the number of times I heard her mutters things like “backwoods nobody” or “hillbilly trash.” The differences between the two of us were great but one of the biggest ones is that waiting a week or making a special call for the cleaning service to come pick up a mess – usually one her son made – just wasn’t in me. And since there would be no more cleaning service, I need to make sure I have everything I need.

I ordered Borax, Washing Soda, and all the other ingredients to make my grandmother’s homemade laundry detergent as well as all the other types of laundry cleaners I knew how to use but had gotten out of the habit of. Laundry bluing which was to make whites whiter, not blue like you would think. Laundry soap nuts[1] which is a really old-time hypoallergenic cleaning method. Bleach tablets that are exactly what they say they are. Vinegar to use as a fabric softener[2]. The different types of Carbona stain removers. I also ordered some of those “magnet sheets” that you can put into your load of clothes to “catch” any fabric dye that washes out of clothes so that it won’t stain other items in the same load. Traditional Woolite products for hand washing delicate items, not that I plan on wearing a lot of “delicates” given my new lifestyle.

I knew I wouldn’t need dishes, glasses, bakeware, pots and pans, cooking utensils, flatware, stemware, or anything else of that nature despite leaving behind the expensive, decorative frou-frou that Dustin’s mother had outfitted our house with, most of which had already been claimed by Dustin when we separated; or more likely Dustin’s mother re-claimed it. Like I said, I have boxes and boxes of housewares to go through when I arrive and honestly some of it will probably be repacked for … maybe the next generation. That said, I am at a point where I’m not sure there will be a “next generation” for me. Having a kid without a partner just does not thrill me. Something I will have to remind myself of if my biological clock goes into nuclear countdown mode and there still isn’t a lifelong partner in the mix, preferably one that I am legally entwined with.

Call it marriage. Call it a civil contract. Call it whatever you want to. I’m all too aware of how transient such things are these days, but I’m also aware of my parents’ and grandparents’ commitment and intertiwininess and how as a kid I needed it, and how when they passed, it made it easier (and harder) to deal with all they’d left behind. Not that I’d dealt with all of it, hence the multitude of boxes I will have before me once they come out of quarantine.

I did order a new tea kettle and new coffee maker (both electric and non-electric) though I’m honestly not certain why. It’s possible I have some in what I am collectively calling The Boxes. That said, as long as some of that stuff has been packed away, I’m better off making sure ahead of time that I for-sure have what I need. Same with a few other small appliances such as a can opener (electric and non), a toaster, countertop grill, blender, toaster oven, counter top grill, air fryer, etc. ad nauseam. And just to add to the freeze-dryer which I considered a major appliance, I bought the largest dehydrator I could acquire. It was a 28-tray commercial grade[3] and stainless steel monstrosity that had 130 sq feet of drying space. Overkill? I double and triple thought the purchase over for two days until I said, “Screw it.” I have no idea how long this whole “pure blood danger” nonsense is going to last. Hope is not a solution. I have a feeling that we aren’t all of a sudden going to start getting along. I’m not sure how interested either side is in getting along, not if we are already segregating rather than searching for a way to live together. Hope can be a feature of a solution, but you need more than hope when you are the one doing all the preparing for potential failure of hope. And that was hope that the power would stay on as well, so I ordered a couple of nonelectric dehydrators[4] that I’d researched for one of my stories.

Paper products was my next focus. Like I wrote earlier, I already have (and added to) paper napkins for seasonal and holiday decorating. And yes, I know decorating for one person sounds silly but I. Don’t. Care. So there. Another failure of my maturity gene but I’m just in that kind of mood. There are other paper products a girl needs, like toilet paper and feminine hygiene products. ROFL. I will admit purchasing two years of both of those was a little much for the online AI ordering schmuck to accept. The program kept asking me if I was sure of the quantity. Nice to know a lowly human can still manage to freak out a supercomputer. Poor thing seemed to wilt in relief when I could actually pay for the purchase as well.

I added some paper towels but, in all honesty, I grew up using white bar towels for cleaning and messes, and still prefer them. Then I gave myself a dope slap for forgetting I would need more bleach than I had thus far ordered. Water purification and general cleaning is one thing, but add laundry to that and your need climbs much higher. It wouldn’t be liquid bleach but had to be bleach tablets and bleach crystals. It’s a good thing that I’ve been going over and over my lists or I can see I’ll have more “holes” to fill than I should. I already figured out that I’ll have things like curtain rods, shades, sheers, and that type of etcetera to order since I can’t get Mr. Contact to give me window or room dimensions. I’m also going to need to order room rugs based on something he let slip. Wood floors. Not real wood floors but the modern equivalent that is waterproof and supposedly nearly scratch and ding proof as well. Which once I remembered that, I went back and added a couple of good dust mops and extra microfiber covers to my list as well as furniture polish… the good stuff like Orange Glo, Lemon Oil, and the furniture oils that had stain in them in case of scratches or dings on wood. And the stuff used for the specialty floor that I was apparently getting. I’m sure I’ll need other things like linseed oil and beeswax, furniture crayons and furniture markers, but that is on a separate list that I may stop and bring in with me.

Back to the “paper goods” order and I added make up remover pads, cotton balls, good ear swabs (which caused me to think of a few things that I needed to add to my hygiene list), and other things like garbage bags of various sizes … and garbage cans to use them in. Let me tell you, all the nitty gritty details kept me up at night, literally. It’s been worse than getting a story three-quarters written and realizing I left several significant plot holes back in the first section of the book. And that’s when I thought of office supplies. O.M.G. I feel like an idiot every time I run across that sort of thing; something so obvious it is inexcusable for missing it … pens, paper, toner for my printers, index cards because I use them for character bios, pencils, markers (permanent for the most part but I have a lot of gel and felt tip types as well). And from there I decided to see if there were any craft supplies I might want. It doesn’t do any good to have a knitting machine if I do not have yarn. I knew there were fabrics and patterns and notions in the stuff all packed up from my mother’s sewing room, but I still made a note on my tablet of what to look for on my road trip.

I know there are going to be holes to fill, more holes than the cybertruck can hold, as I plan to pick up some things on the cross-country trip. But at a certain point I’m going to have to just deal with it. I have other projects I need to get to.


[1] Laundry Soap Nuts - 16 oz
[2] 3 Easy Homemade Fabric Softener Recipes | Networx
[3] Premium 2 Zone / 28 Tray / 130 sq. ft Tray Area | Premium Commercial Dehydrators
[4] How To Dehydrate Food Without Electricity
 

Kathy in FL

Administrator
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Chapter 7​


The cross-country road trip is not going to be for just doing some sightseeing and shopping. The way the membership papers describe it, it is a way for new members to separate themselves from their old lives and say their goodbyes. I’ve already said my goodbyes, not that there were that many to start with. Most of “our” friends had been Dustin’s friends or people his parents expected us to associate with. I hadn’t had a problem with the networking side of that equation, but I hadn’t had a problem when Dustin had socialized without me. Had I socialized as much as Dustin, I never would have gotten a story written, much less edited and published.

So, for me the drive is going to be the final separation from my life with Dustin on the West Coast. Part of me will miss some things. California can be a beautiful state so long as you stay away from the cities. Even around LA there are trails and green areas to go to that give the appearance of getting away from things. But I know for my safety and mental health I need more than a temporary distance. As much as I tell myself that I’m over it, there’s still plenty of pitfalls and habits that I need to break and breakaway from. For goshsake, I still wake up and roll over expecting to see Dustin on the other side of the bed and it is still a toss-up what my reaction is; missing his presence or relief at his absence. That is slowly going away, but not fast enough for my mental health.

Mr. Contact wasn’t thrilled about me traveling alone and wasn’t afraid to voice his opinion. On the other hand, it was going to be the only way for me to get away anonymously given my celebretard identity. I knew Samantha, the only other person in my social sphere that I’d spoken to of my decision about joining The Community, would never rat me out or casually gossip about my choices. She had even been the one to refuse to know all the details for “just in case” her aluminum chapeau isn’t as tight as everyone thinks.

What I am not thrilled with is the check-in’s I am required to participate in and some of the sillier subterfuge they are requiring. Or at least I was until today. I will deal with it, but my name is not Bond … or Barbie. I may be young in many people’s opinion, but not that young and certainly not a child. That said, I don’t think I’m any sort of Wonder Woman either. I’ve done enough research for my stories over the years that I know what is realistic and what is fiction. Maybe my “talents” and those that I’ve trained with and researched lean into what some people would consider fiction, but I know what pure fantasy is insofar as what I am capable of. There are no golden lasso, invisible plane, or bracelets of submission. I don’t have super strength or lightning-fast reflexes. I’m not descended from fantastical creatures, mythological beings, nor can I control the weather or anything else for that matter. I’m just me. Maybe more than your average 25-year-old divorce’ but not much more. It’s going to have to be enough.

The initial trip is 2,200 miles, mostly straight east along I40 until Memphis, TN where I start heading southeast to Tupelo, MS and then Birmingham, AL before turning due east again to meet up with Mr. Contact north of Atlanta, GA. He will then give me the remainder of my marching orders after making sure I am still who I claim to be. And yes, it was phrased exactly like that. I have places that I am allowed to stop, places that I’m required to stop, and some that I am not to stop for love or money because of the increasing threats against “pure bloods.” All my personal electronics are to remain in a faraday bag at all times to avoid any potential tracking issues. At the check-in points I will receive a new burner phone that has been “hardened” against any kind of hacking or tracking. But seeing that no hardware or software is proof against humans that don’t use common sense, I also have a long list of do’s and don’ts when it comes to what I can do and can’t do with any electronics, including money I spend. For good reason as I found out.

For instance, I am not to use credit cards. I’m not to use debit cards. I’m not to use fingerprint passes. I am not to use ATM machines. I am not to use any kind of credit/cash machine that needs my likeness in some manner … ID, picture, eye scan, earprint, fingerprint, etc. Nothing that ties me to accounts that will close as soon as I start my cross-country flee. I am not to use any cash – old-style or new – or cards that I have in the past or that are or have been connected to any of my accounts. At my first stop I will receive single-use gift cards, a supply of never been used physical digi-dollars that can’t be traced, and some of the plastic cred coupons they issue to people that are day laborers that can’t be traced because they “dissolve” after one week. In fact, most of my purchases from the point I leave LA will have to be “washed” in some way to avoid becoming traceable back to my new location. When I asked what difference was that going to make given that I was using credit cards, bank transfers, etc. to purchase everything for my new home before I left, they explained that is why there is a drop point and a quarantine period. The drop point is unique to me, and it is emptied and taken to “quarantine” where it will change ownership to my new identity “Keegan Busby” and be swept for any bugs, trackers, ID sales serial numbers, adware, etc. All warranty identifiers will be gone by the time I take possession.

Let me be honest, all the 007 crappola makes my teeth hurt but I can see their point whether I like it or not. It seems excessive to the point of ridiculousness. This is their game, but it is my life. I’ll play it their way to start. If it starts interfering with my ability to operate realistically I’ll part ways with them.

Speaking of teeth and dental work, I had to have all my teeth checked, my sinuses as well as the rest of me too, for any type of potential tracker and identifying whositwhatsits. Thankfully I haven’t had any type of surgeries and no vaccines to leave things in my body but “better safe than sorry” which on the one hand I understand, and on another they remind me of Samantha’s crazy ideas way too much. Difference being, Samantha always had a more than plausible explanation for her beliefs, these people want me to take a leap of trust that I’m not entirely comfortable with.

The fact that they are monitoring me even now gives me the heebies. This morning I was out for a walk – real errands but they were innocuous. I grabbed a salad, some furniture repair supplies to knock it off my list, picked up a little makeup and hair gunk that was part of the 007 schtick, grabbed a couple of the few things that I would regret leaving LA over – some natural fiber paper from a card shop on the strip I was walking being one of them, and was in the middle of deciding whether to buy the calligraphy set I’d always hinted about as a gift but never received from Dustin when my current burner phone rang and I recognized the number.

“Samantha? How did you … ?”

“Listen up Sweety. Not a lot of time to talk. Dad passed on sooner than expected. It was a relief for him but has sent my own plans into a tailspin as I was picked up and put into service sooner than expected. I’d do a Thelma and Louise with you but I gotta get out of Dodge. They almost grabbed me for harvesting at the hospital of all places. Now stay calm and don’t give anything away. I’m at a safehouse juggling some contracts and helping my current handlers when I get a load of you on a camera. You’ve got a burr on your tail. I recognize him. I met him a couple of times when he claimed to be an intern at your in-laws’ lawyer’s office. Kid is def on the wrong side of town.”

Thinking quickly I asked, “Which one? Red head, brunette, or mister silver highlights with the ridiculous heeled shoes that irritated the hell out of you?”

“Ding, ding, ding we have a winner. He’s a store behind you and has stayed that way for over an hour. He’s definitely watching you kiddo. Dressed very Cali Casual, but still recognizable. Well crap. He looks like he is trying to move in closer. Get out of that store. Now. Then head … what are you doing?!”

“Paying for what I came for and then creating some drama. Call me back when you have a moment.”

Well the drama I created gave me some space to get back to the hotel and up to my room with my purchases. For one of my stories, I learned to “throw my voice” and it just so happened that Mr. Silver Highlights “apparently” said something rude to a very large, agitated looking homeless dude. As one of my characters was fond of saying of such situations, “Hilarity ensued.” And as is typical of LA, everyone ignored the beatdown and continued to go about their day.

When I got back to the hotel, I used the toy that Samantha had given me to do what I should have done the first time I entered the room. I found thirteen bugs. Thirteen. I’m not superstitious by nature but it was not exactly a happy omen. Using my favorite tool to destroy electronics when I caught any of mine with badware on them, I used a chemical application of industrial grade peroxide. It melted the buggers.

I was in the process of packing the last of my things I would be taking with me when a call came from Samantha.

“Okay Chickadee, what did you do?”

“Threw my voice like the time Joyce Dimeron tried to heckle you at that award banquet.”

She snickered. “Okay. But I was talking about your room. There is a bunch of squawking going on and that’s the only reason I got to call.”

“So that’s what that background noise is.” Letting a little of my anger show I said, “Found thirteen bugs in this room.”

The background noise went silent.

“What?” I asked.

Samantha asked me to say that again using her lawyer voice so I knew it was serious. “Repeat how many you found.”

“Thirteen,” I told her. “And that’s assuming I found them all. I wasn’t trying all that hard. Then I did the same thing to them that I do when I get a ware’d up thumb drive back on a sales return.”

“The peroxide trick?”

“One and the same. I’m now officially out of peroxide and I’m not too happy about it.”

Samantha knew I was lying but let it ride. Afterall she’s the one that taught me how to do it with a straight face.

“Chickadee, you need to get out of there. There were only five when the room was gone over before you took up residence and they all belonged to The Community.”

Thinking fast as I decided on a disguise and made double sure nothing going into the bag was infected with trackers. I cussed and told Samantha, “They’re using wall crawlers. I just tossed one down the toilet that had taken up residence in my bag handle. I’ve thrown a wet towel over the floor register so nothing is coming up that way for now. Look, I’ve got a place to go. That will get me to the next place where I will change and from there I’ll get to my ride.”

“You need a new phone.”

“Phone isn’t infected unless it is on the service provider’s end, but I’ll fix that at my first stop. Now tell me the truth as you know it. Do I still have a place to go or are they abandoning ship?”

After a pause she told me quietly, “You are still a member in good standing. They’re having an adjustment reaction. It looks like they may have one or more Benedict Arnolds on their end. You’re going to have to be one of the characters in your books Sweety. Arrive at the first check point. If you feel anything hinky, you’ll be on your own until hook up time with your contact. Do you understand?”

“Dang it. You’re the one with the tinfoil designer wear. I never wanted that … but, oh well … life is what it is,” I said giving in. “We’ll use the current script but no guarantees on my part that I won’t make a sudden and necessary change if the plot takes a lefthand turn into a dead end. Are you okay?”

“Will be. Was offered a position.”

“One you can’t refuse?”

“No. One that I want. Those bastards poisoned my dad and took away time we could have used to … to fix things even more. He died the day that the tests confirmed it was a vax caused cancer. Our side needs more creative legal avenues. Too many corrupt legal beagles on their side so those of us that can, must. Understand?”

“I know you so yeah, I get it. Just watch your p’s and q’s. Next time we meet I want you to still have all your fingers and toes attached. Capiche.”

She sniggered. “Capiche Chickadee. Now get going and give ‘em hell if you have to. Fight to the last drop.”

“Understood,” I answered right before the phone went dead. What she meant was even if I got caught not to stop fighting until they’d drained the last pint of blood.

Time to get to it.
 

Freebirde

Senior Member
I like using the reusable plastic coffee filters to hold tag less/untagged teabags when making tea in my coffee maker. Hope she ordered a lot of coffee filters. With so many uses, you can't have too many. And table salt as cleaning supplies, damp salt is the best thing for cleaning glass coffee pots. If she gets a house pet, damp salt is great for cleaning water bowls/dispensers.
 

Nancy in OK

Senior Member
She needs a Cane Corso dog to protect her! My granddaughter got one last fall that was 6 months old. I love that dog, he is a beast now. He probably is over 100 pounds. I go about every 2 days and play ball with him. I told her she would come home one day and her dog would be gone. He would be at my house. He looks like a black panther running.
 

Kathy in FL

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She needs a Cane Corso dog to protect her! My granddaughter got one last fall that was 6 months old. I love that dog, he is a beast now. He probably is over 100 pounds. I go about every 2 days and play ball with him. I told her she would come home one day and her dog would be gone. He would be at my house. He looks like a black panther running.

Around the block from me is a man that raises cane corso's as support dogs for disabled vets. Whenever he gets a new bunch of puppies and he takes them for a walk it is like he's pulled along by a bunch of brindled mini tanks.
 

Kathy in FL

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Chapter 8​


I looked at myself in the mirror and nearly laughed. I did roll my eyes and gave a thought to some of the people involved in The Community being a little fond of role playing. I looked like a richie rich broad that had just had a ton of plastic surgery done. There were several in residence in the hotel, so I knew I didn’t look out of place. I aged my hands with some watered-down Elmer’s glue to create “wrinkles” and then put on some soft, fingerless gloves that is one of the more recent fashion affectations to make it look like I was hiding what I could. I had on a platinum blonde wig but only a few locks were visible where I’d used gauze to give myself a forehead and chin wrap to “hide the skin under construction” that also happened to cover a “nose job” splint. If I took off the giant bug sunglasses you could just barely see the makeup I used to fake some bruising to make everything extra special stupid. I was dressed in a vintage-style complete sun cover up outfit – a current fad popular with certain aged women – and pulling a very high-end roller bag when I got on the elevator. I topped the get up off with a “stunning” beach hat with a wide brim, and wedge sneakers to make me more average height than the shorty I am normally. Katherine Hepburn, eat your heart out. I doubt even my grandmother would have recognized me and she was my primary partner in crime when I made my Halloween costumes every year.

I was worried they were watching the door, so using a trick I’ve played before to avoid a persistent paparazzi troll, I used a “housekeeping key” I swiped from one of the floor’s cleaning staff and exited my room by way of the connecting suite that I knew had just been vacated by a wealthy old biddy that was full of herself and ignored everyone around her. As far as I know it worked and when I got into the taxi that had been waiting on me, I surreptitiously wedged the now battery-less phone I needed to get rid of as far back in the seat as I could so no one but someone looking deep and hard would find it. That taxi took me to the Departure Drop Off side of LAX. I hurried in having already paid for my ride with a stack of cred sheets that I knew the driver would be happy to have since they supposedly already had the tax paid on them. He accepted the tip as if it was his due after getting my bag out of the trunk.

Inside I hurried to the first ladies’ room that had an empty stall and proceeded to change my camouflage again. Off came Rich Old Biddy and on went Harried Young Generation Beta Woman. Technically and chronologically, I am a Gen B, but I don’t really identify with my “gen group.” I’m more of the Coronial Generation which is a subset of either Gen Z or Gen Alpha. Honestly that entire weirdness is not for me, just a way for today’s social engineers to put people in boxes to control them by defining who they can be. I don’t like being limited in my options which is why Samantha worries that The Community membership may ultimately bring me unhappiness. Meh. They’re a steppingstone and a security measure, something to give me some breathing room to decide the direction I want to take next. If they try to become more than that, or interfere with my freedom beyond what I can tolerate, that’s when there may be trouble. I’m not looking for trouble at this point in my life, so I’ll tow the line so I can get to the next personal level, whatever that turns out to be.

Enough people had gone in and out of the busy bathroom that I was confident no one would realize I changed costumes. I got rid of the makeup on my hands that hadn’t come off with makeup wipes with a good scrub at a sink after disposing of everything but the wig in a fast food bag (wig was still in my roller bag that was newly covered with a gray bag wrap to change its appearance as well). To make everything just a little grosser, I had splashed the pants and shoes with watered down brown dye that looked exactly like what you would think. I sprayed them with “poo-pouri” just to give it that extra detail like whoever threw them away was trying to cover up an accident. On my way out I stuck a magazine in my hemp twine purse about the latest fertility treatments.

The next part was going to be a little tricky. I got into the “ride share” line and chose the Toyota Arena as my drop off point. There was a game scheduled so I knew if I had to, I could disappear into the crowd. I also knew there would be taxi’s there for people that had been drinking. Those were my real goal.

It took over two and a half hours to go less than sixty miles. But it did what I needed it to do. Then I headed to a nearby thrift store I had scoped out days before when I was in the area loading the cybertruck with my get-out-of-Dodge stuff. I caught the store right before it closed. I donated the roller bag after taking out what was left that fit into an oversized messenger bag. I asked if I could use their ladies’ room because I wanted to get to the game, but they wouldn’t let me go in with the roller bag and sob story, sob story. I changed into clothes shrieking about the hometown favorites, changed my hair again by clipping in matching colorful and themed hair braids, and then scalped two tickets with cred coupons and entered the stadium’s food court area, the quickest way across the property.

I was running out of time and the long line for a stupid beer wasn’t going to help me with the next part of my mission impossible plot, so I purposefully bumped into a drunk and got splashed enough for what I needed. I “stumbled” to the line of waiting taxi’s and got into the shortest of all of the still short lines. I wasn’t drunk but I put on a good show of being hacked off at a boyfriend that hadn’t showed. I gave the taxi driver the extra ticket as a tip – people were still hunting for tickets to get into the game – if he could drop me off at Falcon Ridge Town Center in time for me to run inside and change before my aunt came to pick me up.

“You sure about this Miss? I don’t need no trouble with the cops.”

“Don’t sweat it. I haven’t been drinking. Two swallows is not drinking. And it was someone else’s beer anyway. Most of this is where some guy bumped into me. Serves Paul right for not showing when he promised to skip class to meet me.” The guy just shook his head and decided not to notice me anymore. Jailbait problems he did not need.

My biggest problem wound up getting into the mall to lose the loud Team Spirit get up because they had the Mall Cops from Hell guarding the entrances and it was slowing things down. Rather than the bathroom I had to jump into a dressing room to change after buying something a little more modest to wear than what I had on.

I was hurrying out of the mall and just caught my ride before he drove off. “Dang-it Manny. I’m not even late and you would have left me high and dry.”

“Relax Chica. A call would have brought me back.”

I shook my head in frustration. “I need another phone.”

He straightened up. “You being tailed?”

“If I am they are better than you and Rick taught me to be. Let’s just go. I need to get on the road.”

Soon enough we were pulling into a building in a rundown warehouse area. Manny’s older brother Rick, a former flame of Samantha’s, rolled down the door as soon as the old Dodge Charger was in. Nothing was said but after being shown to the cybertruck and shown all the nifty extras one more time, I was handed the keys in exchange for a hefty tip for the “storage” and then got directions that would get me out of there and to the interstate fastest.

I was about to shut the door when Rick stopped me. “You see her … uh … you see her you tell her she’s the only woman that I might have given this up for. But … family. I gotta take care of them.”

I nodded. “Then get Tess out of here. I … look, just get Tess out of here.” Tess was his niece and the baby of their family. She was paralyzed from the waist down from a bullying incident when she was in grade school, but she was a “pure blood” and there was no telling how desperate people were going to get.

His eyes hardened and he nodded. Rick would either do it or not, but I’d given him the only warning I could, and it is one that he would understand. He was even worse about certain things than Samantha had ever been and that was saying something.

I pulled away from the garage and in no time I was on Interstate 15 heading to I40 and the onramp at Barstow, CA. Rick had made sure I was full on both tanks (they were one of the “upgrades” since traditional fuel vehicles required a special and expensive permit in California). That was in addition to the 350-mile range on the electric charge. That was easily going to get me to Needles, CA which was my first stop. So, I settled in for the first in a long series of drives.
 
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