The rest of the afternoon was fractured and jumbled. The bags John had given them were actually some new kinda Swiss made pistol sized Personal Defense Weapons. They looked like big pistols with tiny stocks. Garen would play with them later when he got the time. He then asked Kara about the stuff and info she got from the ambush. Evidently there are several meth labs and drug distro point within an area of the National Forest. Those guys were there to help either a drop off or a pick up but were interrupted by the trip line going off. They had no map so they were familiar with the area. They had standard run of the mill handguns plus some other, questionable paraphernalia like construction helmets with headlamps, shovels, several sets of well-worn shackles and a five gallon can of kerosene. There was also the standard pocket litter, but no cell phones. Kara didn’t have time to do a wider sweep, but she did some quick work to throw others off their trail. When Allyson hear this, she was a bit incredulous.
“What did you do to accomplish this feat of misdirection?”
“You don’t really want to know, do you?” giving a hard look at Allyson.
Allyson was torn between wanting to know, and not wanting to admit how far things had come. In for a penny, in for a pound. She had already been there when those two were killed.
“Yeah, I think I ought to. So at least I understand.”
“Ok, I stripped the bodies, cut off their heads, carved MS-13 in their foreheads and set the heads on their chests in their own hands.” The tone Kara was using was as flat as a pond.
“You’re kidding, right?”
Kara looked Allyson right in the eyes. The ice grey was hard as flint as she softly spoke her next words.
“No, the truth of the matter is, yes I did this. They shot first, they used a lethal booby trap as a warning device, and they had been weighed and judged by their own actions. I merely used the results of their poor choices to try and steer anyone else away from it being us who did this.”
Allyson was speechless for a few moments. She didn’t really know what to do. She was out of her depth, she knew that now. But she also had a better thought to how she was thinking of this little group. It kinda reminded her of watching the dog handlers. The dog is bouncing around and playing and acting like a normal puppy playing in the yard with the handler. Later, the same happy go lucky dog looks like Cujo reincarnated when chasing a fleeing perp. It always left her wondering which was the real dog; the happy playful puppy, or the one wanting to tear a guy’s leg off.
Kara didn’t want to tell Alyson, and she really didn’t want to after she saw the look come over Allyson’s face when she did. Allyson would look at her differently from now on, she knew. Maybe it’s better though. Better Allyson realized what a truly ****ed up world existed outside the bubble of the United States for the most part until now. She hoped that just this description was the worst Allyson would have to experience. She turned back to Garen and continued.
“Garen, we need more information about what’s going on out there in too many places. Which one should we tackle first?”
Garen looked around the room at all the faces waiting for him to make decisions. Damnit! He wasn’t supposed to have to be in charge. With a heavy sigh, he grabbed a piece of paper and started laying out the problems and potential locations that needed investigated. To do everything right, he needed more bodies. He didn’t have more bodies, but they still needed to do things to stay ahead of things.
“Ok, first, I want to get back down to the truck we stopped going into Thor’s. We need to find out more about those guys. Were they the ones coming to meet up with our other problem children or do we have two groups to worry about? Second, we need to get back down to the Center. We need to confirm my suspicions and grab or secure things there or bring them back here. Third, we need to keep working on our various contingency plans, including our worst case E&E if we get overrun by the zombie hoard. Somewhere in the middle of all this, if we come across more fuel, we need to tank up on as much as we can carry and bring back.”
Bekka chimed in “So do you have a plan for any of this, or are we just failing about?”
“I have a plan. Correction, I have a part of a plan.”
Bekka glared “Is it one I’m going to like?”
“Of course not. I need you to scrape up as much data from as many places as you can about the conditions around the Center. When we go there, it will have to be with a decent sized vehicle and it would be good to have routing plotted beforehand. Also while you are doing that, monitor the comms for the other op. I’ll go down this evening on one of the little motorcycles so I’m quieter and do a midnight recce of the truck and scrape any Intel I can from it. While I do that, Kara and Allyson will be the QRF in the Hyena. Depending on what I find and what we think after I get back, the next day we reset and potentially push out to the Center. That gives you, Bekka, about two days to build as much as a route as you can. For that one, I’m thinking me and Allyson in my truck. That would leave you two,” pointing at Kara and Bekka, “as the QRF. It would be mostly roads, so at that point, Bekka’s the driver with Kara. Allyson and me will give good Intel along our route so you would know what you’re rolling through and the pavement driving wouldn’t jar you and your broken ribs as much as dirt driving. Easy, right?” Garen smiled at the rest of them.
“My ribs were the result of your last ‘easy plan’, mister” Bekka growled, “but it makes sense.”
“Great!” Garen stood up and looked around. “Boot and saddles around sundown, right after dinner?” When no one had questions, Garen walked off down the tunnel to the garage.
Bekka stopped Allyson and Kara after Garen walked out. “Guys, I know this is a jacked up situation and everything but please remember, that man,” pointing over her shoulder and where Garen went, “is going to try his best to come up with a way for all of us to come through this in the end, even if it kills him. We need to try and think how we can all pull more than our fair share. If he thought he could go do all these things by himself and keep us safe, he would. Now, Kara, there’s some boxes on the shelf just inside the tunnel marked uniform spares. In them are some basically new t-shirts. Allyson, you should be able to wear the ones marked for me, and Kara, you’re screwed. You know whatever is going to just hang on you, but there should be some compression ones in there that won’t be as baggy.”
Kara led Allyson to the boxes. They were right next to the ones they had pillaged for Allyson’s e&e kit. Both women were pretty quiet for quite some time. Finally Kara spoke.
“Allyson, I know you must think I’m some kind of monster for doing what I did, but…”
“I don’t know what I think, so how should you. You guys are just……I don’t know. You guys remind me of some of the people I had to go undercover against. You would see some drug dealer playing catch with his kid, then later, bashing some suspected snitch ‘s brains out with a baseball bat, then go back home and have a tea party with their little girl. It’s confusing, and scary, and I keep feeling like I’m trying to catch up. It’s like tuning into a movie that’s half over and you’re always trying to fill in the blanks in the plot to try and understand what’s going on. Part of me knows you guys are right in what you are doing, but the other part is scared shitless that it all makes sense.”
Kara leaned on the shelf as she thought a bit until she finally replied.
“I understand, and maybe you have hit on the way to understand and adapt. You said you did some undercover work?”
“Yeah,” Allyson replied tentatively.
“Think of it like that. When you went undercover, you had to play a part to the hilt, think like the person you were supposed to be, act like them, and be them. You had to be able to feel it to the core yet keep it separate from yourself. It’s almost like two separate personalities, two separate beings inhabiting the same body. A Jekyll and Hyde, so to speak. In this, you be who you have to be for the situation. Did I enjoy what I did? No, but I thought it was the best way I could try and protect us. They were dead. Their souls had already passed on to their final judgements. I was only hurting evidently you, and I tried to keep you separate from it, to also try and not hurt you.”
“I understand all of that and it makes a kind of sense, but it is still a rough adjustment.”
“Yes it is. Maybe it will help to think of this as your new undercover assignment, here in the Mad Max Apocalypse. Later, when things work themselves out, you can come back out of your undercover identity and return to the world.”
“Maybe, but I still have to wonder. Which one is which for you guys? Which one is your undercover identity, and which one is the real you?”