About a month ago, I had an experience that I have sought for a long time, and one that I have wondered about my whole life, going back to my church days.
We were taught that Jesus has unconditional love for all of us, and loves all of us equally. That always baffled me. I could never fathom being able to feel the same love that I do for family, for 'scumbags', mean people, greedy people and the smelly coworker who doesn't seem to care that his stench is taking years off my life.
Unfathomable. But I always wondered, "how could that be possible", and what it would feel like.
Well, now I know. It was, shall we say, beyond incredible. Like many who have had similar experiences, words do not really do it justice.
I went to bed, and at some point in my sleep, I found myself 'out of body', somewhere above the Earth looking down. I was immediately filled and overflowing with absolute and total love for all of humanity.
No one was left out. There was no list of names or faces running through my mind. I simply felt pure, universal, unconditional love for every soul on Earth. I was overflowing, bubbling, with joy, a kind I've never experienced.
There was no judgment. Zero. None. No hate. No regrets. No wishing and hoping. No superiority complex. No ego, and none of the daily trappings that we find in our lives. It was all irrelevant to the big picture.
And.......every soul that I felt this love for, felt like my own personal family. They were my brothers and sisters. Everyone.
There was no shame. No guilt. No resentment, no victims, no enemies, no aggressors and no 'sides'. Just family, and all living on Earth together in one grand and glorious experience.
As I floated over the Earth, I loudly said the following: "I love everyone! I love the whole....world...."
There was not one drop of negativity in my soul. Not a drop.
A few seconds after saying that, and feeling love for the whole planet, I returned to my body and woke up.
Now, I know, if only in some small way, what it feels like to be Jesus, and to have that unconditional love for all of humanity.
I should also say, as much as I struggle with this in the flesh with my physical mind, that from that state of total love, I would have done anything, ANYTHING, for my fellow brothers and sisters........including, sacrifice myself. From that perspective of pure love, it would be impossible not to play whatever role was necessary for me to play to support my family.
As I write this, that feeling, that emotion, the unconditional love, it is all gone. I cannot feel it. I cannot reach it. I cannot even recall the sensation of the emotion in my memories. It is that different, and that far removed from my egotistical self. It is out of reach........for now.
But, I do remember the experience, and I know that it was absolutely real. It was undeniable. And, I also know, that I will return to that state again. It is the nature of my true self, just as it is for everyone else.
We were taught that Jesus has unconditional love for all of us, and loves all of us equally. That always baffled me. I could never fathom being able to feel the same love that I do for family, for 'scumbags', mean people, greedy people and the smelly coworker who doesn't seem to care that his stench is taking years off my life.
Unfathomable. But I always wondered, "how could that be possible", and what it would feel like.
Well, now I know. It was, shall we say, beyond incredible. Like many who have had similar experiences, words do not really do it justice.
I went to bed, and at some point in my sleep, I found myself 'out of body', somewhere above the Earth looking down. I was immediately filled and overflowing with absolute and total love for all of humanity.
No one was left out. There was no list of names or faces running through my mind. I simply felt pure, universal, unconditional love for every soul on Earth. I was overflowing, bubbling, with joy, a kind I've never experienced.
There was no judgment. Zero. None. No hate. No regrets. No wishing and hoping. No superiority complex. No ego, and none of the daily trappings that we find in our lives. It was all irrelevant to the big picture.
And.......every soul that I felt this love for, felt like my own personal family. They were my brothers and sisters. Everyone.
There was no shame. No guilt. No resentment, no victims, no enemies, no aggressors and no 'sides'. Just family, and all living on Earth together in one grand and glorious experience.
As I floated over the Earth, I loudly said the following: "I love everyone! I love the whole....world...."
There was not one drop of negativity in my soul. Not a drop.
A few seconds after saying that, and feeling love for the whole planet, I returned to my body and woke up.
Now, I know, if only in some small way, what it feels like to be Jesus, and to have that unconditional love for all of humanity.
I should also say, as much as I struggle with this in the flesh with my physical mind, that from that state of total love, I would have done anything, ANYTHING, for my fellow brothers and sisters........including, sacrifice myself. From that perspective of pure love, it would be impossible not to play whatever role was necessary for me to play to support my family.
As I write this, that feeling, that emotion, the unconditional love, it is all gone. I cannot feel it. I cannot reach it. I cannot even recall the sensation of the emotion in my memories. It is that different, and that far removed from my egotistical self. It is out of reach........for now.
But, I do remember the experience, and I know that it was absolutely real. It was undeniable. And, I also know, that I will return to that state again. It is the nature of my true self, just as it is for everyone else.
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