March 12 - Manatee Springs State Park (part 2)
While I had Benny clean up and dry off I took supper out of the crock pot … pot roast over rice. It was a bit of a repeat, but Lev and Benny didn’t complain. By the time Benny was out Rick and Lev had a new canopy set up over the picnic table. This one was the next that a vendor had donated to get included in the pictures (it has their logo on it) and it was basically a pop-up screen room. Heavier and more cumbersome than the other one but would be better now that the mosquitos were more troublesome.
After supper I pulled out the dessert surprise; Thin Mint Ice Cream Pie that used a gluten-free version of thin mint cookies
[1]. Clean-up was easy since I had lined the crock pot and we used paper plates. That’s when Rick asked, “Gus? You … you got a minute to talk?”
I was drying the dishpan and said, “Let me put this away and make sure Benny is good for a bit. You want to sit or walk?”
I could tell what his answer was so when I checked on Benny I whispered, “I’m gonna lock the door. Use your tablet to beep me if there is a problem but Ranger Rick needs to talk. I’m gonna try and keep his head on his shoulders but it might take a while.”
“Is he angry?” Benny asked in concern.
“Not at me if that’s what you’re wondering. Or us. I think he just needs to talk with someone that is … sympathetic or something like that.”
Benny relaxed. “Oh. You talk good Aunt Gus. You listen really, really good too. When my brain itches you always know how to help.”
I gave him a kiss on the head and a tickle and then pointed to his tablet and he plugged it up and didn’t make a fuss when I locked the door on the way out. Lev had set up his equipment and gave me a serious look and a thumbs up where Rick couldn’t see.
“Why don’t we take a walk,” I suggested.
He asked, “What about Benny?”
“He knows we won’t go far, and the van is locked. Lev is sitting at the picnic table doing his thing and will keep an eye out for any emergency.”
“Oh.” He looked pretty blasted, so I just started walking and pulled him along.
After about fifteen feet he said, “He could have died. Almost did.”
“That’s rough,” I said sympathetically. “But you said he is better and in good hands.”
“His doctor is German.”
“Is this the same doctor that he always has?”
“No. That guy isn’t bad, but the new doc is top notch and more proactive. His other doctor recommended this new guy. Apparently he’s world renowned or something close. But my uncle … he could have died.”
“But he didn’t,” I told him since he seemed to need it reinforced.
“Rosa and her mother …”
Uh oh. Warning Will Robinson. Watch where this is going. “Were supportive?”
“No!” He stopped and took a deep breath. “No. All they seemed to … to be thinking about is …”
He just stopped talking. “Rick, it doesn’t make them or you bad for being blunt. I take it all they could do is think about how his passing would have affected them.”
He jerked to a stop and stared at me in the dark. “How did you know?”
I snorted but tried to be honest but compassionate at the same time. “Because that’s the most common reaction that people have when things go toes up. It’s … look, it’s fear. Let me give you an example. Penny, Benny’s mother, pretty much fell apart after my brother died. Lawrence hadn’t just been her lover and friend, he’d been her protector and provider. Penny really didn’t have any family close … not that kind of close anyway … that could help. After Lawrence? As a mother she always worried about Benny. Mostly I got caught betwixt and between because she was pissed off at me because I couldn’t follow her down the hole. See, I’d made my brother a promise I would take care of both of them if anything ever happened to him. She was so afraid that it took her a while to see that I was grieving and terrified too. But … she did, she just couldn’t keep it together. Rosa and her mom … they don’t have the same problems as Penny. But they do have the same worries. The question is are you going to stay angry at them, or are you going to avoid carrying that baggage around.”
It took a moment but Rick answered, “My uncle still wants them to come to the states and he still wants me to keep getting their paperwork in order. He just hasn’t had the energy to push and now the docs are saying he shouldn’t be stressed at all.”
Asking what I thought was an important question I said, “Do
you still want to help them out with their immigration paperwork? I thought the agreement was they needed to be proactive of the stuff they must do on their end.”
He was quiet for a long time. “Right now I’m angry that it is being dumped on me again. From what I was able to discover, Rosa’s parents are the ones that screwed it up. They never started the naturalization process. Didn’t even bother keeping their green cards up, just moved from state to state when things started getting hot in any location. They also didn’t make sure any of their kids took care of their DACA paperwork or started on their own naturalizations.”
“Wait, I thought Rosa was an only. Where are the others now and why aren’t they helping?”
He sighed deeply. “All over. The one son that could help … won’t for his own reasons. Rosa is her mother’s only kid but her mother helped rather Rosa’s half siblings. They … haven’t really been a cohesive family in a while.”
I avoided the TMI by asking, “What about Rosa’s aunt?”
He gave me a look and said, “Aunt Sylvia is … she’s pretty straight. She might as well be a nun. But she is devoted to my uncle. And I think he retired to Costa Rica to be near her. However if Rosa’s mother is a … uh … ultra traditionalist, Rosa’s grandparents were ten times as bad. It made things complicated what little of that stuff I can find out. They just died last year. Sylvia was the middle daughter, sent money home to her parents, and would have more than likely been called home to be her father’s caretaker if there hadn’t been a younger third wife that pretty much took things over and moved Aunt Sylvia and the rest of them out in favor of her own kids.”
Oh brother. “Yep. Story I’ve heard a few times before, just not all of them are Spanish.”
He nodded and had started to lose some of that weird energy he’d been giving off. “They own a coffee plantation and had a cattle ranch as well. Apparently Aunt Sylvia’s older brothers insisted she get some of the money when the cattle ranch was sold. Not even their stepmother could change that and gossip is that she tried.”
“Not to be cynical, but more than likely her brothers did it that way to keep her, Sylvia, from moving home, or maybe for a bigger dower so she’d find a man to take care of her now that she is past her prime on the regular marriage market. Maybe to a man that already has heirs.”
He gave me a look before saying, “You really do know.”
“Basic Human History 101 until the last century. They still do it in some families and cultures, you just don’t call it that. So back to your story.”
He sighed. “Aunt Sylvia is cool. She’s good for and to my uncle. And for the record I’m fine if there is more to it than nurse/patient.”
“But?”
“But … this whole thing with Rosa.” He shook himself. “You know … I want to be more than a friend. With you I mean.”
“We’ve already had this discussion Rick. Being co-workers creates complications that might be not be insurmountable, but that doesn’t make it smart to pick Door #1.”
He gave a cynical chuff. “I wish Rosa was as patient and understanding as you. I … need time. I don’t want to hurt her. But she’s got expectations that I’m not necessarily interested in meeting. But then my uncle has his expectations and … I can’t exactly have a discussion with him about things right now because of his health.”
“Are you sure?” I asked.
“What?”
I said, “Are you sure you can’t have that conversation. And I’m not asking you to think about that because there might be something that could grow between us besides friendship.”
“Might?”
“Yeah, might. No pressure remember? I like you. I know I like you. But we are still in the friends-lane and it looks like you need it to stay that way and I’m willing to see that need met because of all the other reasons we’ve talked about before. And I’m not making this discussion about me. When we started walking you looked like you were about to come uncorked. So talk. Bleed it off. What is it you need?”
He growled. “Dammit why do you make this so easy?”
A little affronted I said, “Well excuse the hell out of me. Who in their right mind wants to make things harder?”
He stood there with his mouth hanging open before shutting it and starting us walking the camp road another circle. “That didn’t come out exactly right,” he said as a form of apology.
“Okay, I’ll give. What did you mean to say?” I said, willing to let it go.
“I wish people would stop pressuring me.”
“I’m not,” I reminded him.
“Exactly. God, my uncle almost died Gus. And I can’t give him what he wants.”
“Which is? Or do I even need to ask.”
A little hesitantly he explained, “He wants some happily ever after for me. I’m not sure I’m even interested in that right now. I have things I want to do. I’m only twenty-six years old dammit. There’s got to be time for other stuff. I want to go back and get my master’s degree for one, and you know that’s out the door given my current salary if I have to support a family.”
“A ready-made family?”
He gave a deep sigh. “I’m sorry Gus, but yeah. It’s like some fairytale in his head and I know he has the best of intentions. I mean his motivations are pure, he just feels like he is running out of time. And if you hadn’t come along, I might have even been willing to fall in line so long as he wasn’t expecting it to happen so fast.”
Trying not to be disappointed I said, “He’s older, in bad health, and he cares for you like a father. I can see my own father maybe doing something similar if he’d been given the time to see me as something other than a burden he was going to have to take care of for all his days.”
“Uh …”
I gave a sad chuckle. “Relax. I get it. Dad just never got to see me grow up. And he might have gotten in the way of me growing up … until he didn’t have a choice. I could be walking in your shoes but life … decided differently. But that means you have options. You’re just going to have to choose. It sounds like for now you want to shelve the entire relationship thing, just not in a way that you view will hurt anyone. And you can uncross your eyes, I do know how to converse like an adult.”
“Why do you make me want to laugh when you say stuff like that?” he asked bewildered. “Are you doing it on purpose? Is this too serious for you? Not serious enough?”
“None of the above. I’m being me and I’m taking your need to talk seriously. We’re crew, or a team if you prefer, and this is what I was trained to do and part of what I am supposed to do as my contribution to the grant; observe and find solutions so we can keep ticking along. So here it is. You are badly stressed Rick. As in it is making you sick. You are getting it coming and going. And none of it is something you can just punt down the field for someone else to handle. Been there, so I’m sympathetic. I also know you’ll survive this phase, you just have to decide what you are willing to accept and live with.”
“I wish Rosa … wait, there’s no way that doesn’t come out sounding not what I mean.”
I rolled my eyes and was glad he couldn’t see it in the dark. Instead, I told him, “Will you relax already. I’m. Your. Friend. We’ve established the likes here. But … there
is your uncle and there
is Rosa. Your uncle’s place is obvious. Rosa is … was … is … a piece of your life. You need to decide how that piece fits in now rather than letting other people tell you how she fits.”
“Well it doesn’t fit with me marrying her and making it easier for her to move back to the States,” he snapped.
“Whoa. Is that you assuming or did someone actually say that?”
More than a little embarrassed he answered, “My uncle. But he was on pretty strong meds at the time and maybe wouldn’t have said it otherwise. Aunt Sylvia told me not to take anything he said seriously but she wasn’t in the room when he said it, so I don’t know how much she knows. I do know that Rosa and her mother were shocked that I came back here. They thought I would stay in Costa Rica but … I don’t have the leave. Uncle George said he understood and even his doctors said I couldn’t do anything but stand over him at that point. They all have my new number and so does Aunt Sylvia.”
“Your new number.” A new piece of the puzzle.
“Er … yeah. I … er … I took a page out of your book and set a new number up that routes my calls depending on the number calling. Sylvia understands boundaries. Rosa and her mother not so much. I told them because they called my number so much during work hours that it caused a problem with the rule about personal calls. I’ll have to see how that goes.”
Trying to impress on him without bossing him around I said, “Rick, you need to be upfront with her. Tell her she’s pushing and that you just want to be friends.”
Mildly confused he said, “I thought that was the understanding we had. She just keeps pushing.”
“Put her on ignore until she believes you.”
“I don’t want to hurt her. And I’m worried it will get back to Uncle George and he doesn’t need that kind of stress.”
“Okay, don’t take this the wrong way, but do you really want people that would resort to that kind of blackmail around your uncle?”
“They wouldn’t do it on purpose.”
“Bull crap.” He was getting stressed again so I backed off. “Look I’m your friend before anything else so I’m just going to say it like I see it for
your sake, not theirs. Regardless of their motivation, this is something you need to put your foot down about. Tell them if they don’t back off you aren’t going to make time for their immigration paperwork. That it is going to cause such problems with your employment that you aren’t going to
have time to help them with their immigration paperwork. I’ve made that suggestion before. I’m doubling down on it. It is already going to take money and a lawyer to get them back in the country legally. At least Rosa and her mother. And for your info, they must apply in person on their end in their country of origin, at the US Embassy.”
“That’s for refugees.”
I shook my head. “Nope. That’s every applicant. If she left any unpaid bills, that must be paid before they’ll even look at their application. They’ll also have to prove they don’t have any outstanding warrants … and Rosa may if she didn’t show up for her DACA hearing, assuming she had one.”
“How do you know this?” he asked suspiciously.
“I got worried about you and your uncle playing Don Quixote. I looked it up and then called a couple of people to confirm that I understood what I was reading. And Florida is very strict. If they catch you without proper paperwork you can plan on being arrested and put in one of the containment camps until the hearing comes up. She will be separated from her kid and her kid will go into the foster care system until that time. If she’s found to be an unfit mother, the kid might just remain in foster care until a judge signs off on an order removing her parental rights and him getting put up for adoption. With all the fertility problems from the covid infections, you know it won’t take long. As for Rosa …”
Overwhelmed with the new information Rick said, “Stop. I’ll … I’ll see how much of this is true in the next couple of days.”
I tried not to be oversensitive to the fact that he thought I might be lying. I told him, “Make sure you call a good immigration lawyer … one that has the right license in the right state … and not one that is just going to take your money and tell you what you want to hear rather than what you need to hear. Rick, I care about you and as a friend I’m telling you, be careful. You work for the State. If you get tied to something hinky, it could mean your job. I don’t want to see you get hurt no matter how innocent Rosa thinks her motivations are. If she cares about you, she’ll pay more attention to how her actions could hurt you.”
He'd opened his mouth until my last sentence and slowly closed it. “You … you think she doesn’t understand?”
“I have no clue.” Yeah right. “I’ve never met her. And I freely admit most of this is none of my business. Also for the record, I don’t hate her. But you are my friend, and it is obvious how much you care about your uncle. It is also obvious this is wrecking your peace of mind. And if you don’t get it under control your job could be collateral damage. I’d hate to see that happen. Not because of what it would mean for the grant, but because of what it would do to you. You love your job. Just stand up for yourself. I get that your uncle’s health makes things harder. But at the least you need to get Rosa to see things from your side. She’s got problems that you may not be able to fix, that it might not be your responsibility to fix. She’s freaked out six ways from Sunday … her second father is seriously ill, she has a little boy she is trying to secure a future for, her kid’s father died by the sword and won’t be helping her to support the little boy, and she’s grasping at straws and you are the biggest and strongest and best known. I get you want to help her. But it isn’t your fault she made the choices to do what she did.”
He sighed. “I … I like you Gus. I always know where I stand.”
I wish I could have returned the compliment, but I couldn’t. I don’t know where I stand with Rick. Oh, I trust that he thinks he likes me and all that. I’m just not sure of the rest of it. This isn’t nearly as bad as it was with Christopher but I’m going to have to get my own grip on things.
When we got back to camp I took care of Benny who refused to go to sleep until I got back. I also fixed myself a mug of chamomile tea and sat outside as the coals turned from red to barely orange in the fire ring. I nearly jumped when my phone buzzed in my back pocket. Without thinking I took it out. It wasn’t Benny wanting one last thing. It was Lev.
“Well R came back with his head sewed back on. But now you look stressed out.”
“Nah. Just thinking.”
“About?”
“That you give good advice when it comes to co-workers and entanglements.”
“Uh oh.”
“Nah Pappaw. Even if R and I weren’t co-workers, he’s got major crappage going on and there wouldn’t be room for anything else.”
“You okay with that?”
“Meh. Kinda figured. You give good advice.”
“Ha. Wish I could fix this. You look sad.”
“Like I said, Meh. He says he likes me. That’ll have to do until he figures things on his end out.”
I couldn’t stay up all night and neither could Lev. Time to hit the hay. Just hope I can sleep without resorting to a caffeine bubbly water. The stress is making the hamster feel like it has static electricity.
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