Finch
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As I walked up to the counter I watched the black postal worker's eyes glaze over with contempt as her face tightened with hostility. I had never seen her before nor she me. It was nothing personal. I politely asked for a money order and she efficiently got it.
I moved away to fill out the money order and watched to see if she was just plain angry or something. No, she was all smiles to the four or five people she waited on while I was there. I'm very cheerful and considerate usually and knew I had been while interacting with her.
I also knew I had a problem and I also knew what it was. I am a blonde woman. This was entirely racial. I thought about it for a few days off and on. If the race war is coming (some think it's already here) then myself and other blondes of any sex are well.........I won't finish that because I refuse to put myself in the victim category. However, I'm no fool and it is what it is.
I went out and bought a couple of wigs. The main one I wanted is very dark brown. I've only worn it a couple of times, mainly because it's been so hot. I took it off before I turned down my home street. People do act a bit different so far. One black man was very friendly. I don't know if it will make any difference but it's nice to know I have it. I like the idea of having a disguise if I want it. I look like an entirely different person with them on. I am very law abiding for my own spiritual reasons. I'm not "up to something" when I have it on. Its good to know that the watchers don't always know who they are watching. In the big scheme of things it won't get me anywhere I'm not supposed to be. But I don't need it to.
Someday it may get me somewhere safely. I'll probably never know. I do know its fun to be anonymous sometimes. In the old days disguises were used more than they are now. Women liked to dress and pass as men. They could go places and do things that way that women could not. Costume parties were more common.
I thought I'd throw this out for comments. Has anyone else had a problem like this? I know its a slight one for now and hope it stays that way. Has anyone tried or thought about trying out a disguise? The time to work on it now before it is really need. I do consider it a prep for me. I'd love to hear your ideas.
I moved away to fill out the money order and watched to see if she was just plain angry or something. No, she was all smiles to the four or five people she waited on while I was there. I'm very cheerful and considerate usually and knew I had been while interacting with her.
I also knew I had a problem and I also knew what it was. I am a blonde woman. This was entirely racial. I thought about it for a few days off and on. If the race war is coming (some think it's already here) then myself and other blondes of any sex are well.........I won't finish that because I refuse to put myself in the victim category. However, I'm no fool and it is what it is.
I went out and bought a couple of wigs. The main one I wanted is very dark brown. I've only worn it a couple of times, mainly because it's been so hot. I took it off before I turned down my home street. People do act a bit different so far. One black man was very friendly. I don't know if it will make any difference but it's nice to know I have it. I like the idea of having a disguise if I want it. I look like an entirely different person with them on. I am very law abiding for my own spiritual reasons. I'm not "up to something" when I have it on. Its good to know that the watchers don't always know who they are watching. In the big scheme of things it won't get me anywhere I'm not supposed to be. But I don't need it to.
Someday it may get me somewhere safely. I'll probably never know. I do know its fun to be anonymous sometimes. In the old days disguises were used more than they are now. Women liked to dress and pass as men. They could go places and do things that way that women could not. Costume parties were more common.
I thought I'd throw this out for comments. Has anyone else had a problem like this? I know its a slight one for now and hope it stays that way. Has anyone tried or thought about trying out a disguise? The time to work on it now before it is really need. I do consider it a prep for me. I'd love to hear your ideas.
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