In Their Shelter
“You did some real good thinking. I don’t know if I would have made it otherwise.” Tanya said, her spoon paused as she scooped up some of the food from her mug. She could feel his eyes on her, and she knew she had to say something. She knew talking might help him, but she wasn’t sure if it would help her. Right now, all she wanted to do was crawl back into the sleeping bag and get warm again.
The cold always hurt her. It seemed to linger in her bones forever. Her hands worked right now only because she had them wrapped around her mug full of steaming food. She dropped her spoon back into the mug so she could wrap her fingers around it again.
She wasn’t sure she wanted to meet those eyes right now. She wasn’t sure what she would see if she did. She didn’t know exactly what it would be, but she didn’t know what would be worse among her guesses.
While setting things up, she caught him looking nervous when she would turn around and catch him staring at her. She wasn’t sure exactly, but she suspected what it was.
She wasn’t a supermodel, but she still had a decent body, not much fat to be found since poverty, stress and starvation definitely kept her weight low and her body thin. Randel was a fifteen-year-old boy, who was obviously attracted to girls given what he told her earlier, and here he stripped her down to nothing and cuddled up with her in a sleeping bag, also basically naked.
She had to admit, the thought made her nervous, especially since she didn’t remember any of it, and barely remembered standing there naked as she dealt with the dead guy on the horse. She wasn’t sure how long before the shivering reminded her she was naked and she went to get dressed, but she spent far more time naked in front of him than was appropriate, that’s for sure.
She was worried about how it may change their relationship, but right now, she had to make sure things were well enough he would listen to her and do what she told him to. Deep philosophical dissection of their relationship and situation was better left until after they got to the house. Maybe a defusing? Those Critical Incident Stress Debriefing courses had to be good for something other than block filling for CEUs.
“I had to do something. I don’t know how to drive a motorcycle.” Randel said, scraping the bottom of his mug with his own spoon.
“Well, at least the cell phones are dead and gone.” She said with a grin.
“Oh, why? Wait, why are you talking about cell phones? You told me I shouldn’t bring them up.”
“I was just thinking it was best you didn’t have one with you, otherwise You’d have me on OnlyFriends by now.”
She almost hurt herself laughing at either how red he turned or how much he stuttered before he found a way to speak.
“I would never do that to you!”
“I know, just…”
“Besides, PornHub has a bigger audience-base.”
“Randel….”
Randel smiled back at her. “Honestly, Mom, you’re…” he turned even redder and sputtered to a stop.
“You better not be ready to say…”
“No, but you’re hotter than any of those bitches Dad brought home.” Now, it was Tanya turning red and not know where to go with the conversation, so Randel continued.
“I never understood why Dad ****ed things up with you. Smart, passionate, smoking hot, didn’t shit all over the kid she inherited, treated his son better than he had any hope, hell, ten times better than his own father did.”
The choking sob of the last part broke Tanya’s heart and snapped her out of her embarrassment.
“He saw me as a possession and, well, he got greedy and I got complacent. I didn’t think I needed to ‘chase’ him. I looked at a marriage as two parts making one ‘whole’ where he was stuck on always wanting to be fawned over as a prize.”
“He was a ****ing idiot!” he blurted.
“He was your father.”
“He was a useless piece of shit! He sure as hell wouldn’t have dropped everything, risked his life, hell almost died just to save me, like you did. He divorced you! Cheated on you, divorced you then did everything he could to **** you over forever. Hell, he had ****ing court orders drawn up making even talking to me a goddamn felony. You didn’t give birth to me and could have just walked away and no on, NO ONE would have blamed you in the least.”
She looked him in the eye. There was no embarrassment now, no overblown theatrics. Plenty of passion and conviction though.
“When I stood in front of that alter and made that vow, I made it to God and to you. You remember what I said as you stood there next to your father?”
“You said you would treat me as your own son, and you said you would always take care of me.” Randel said.
“Your father didn’t take it seriously and pissed it all away, but I made a vow to you and to God, and I meant it. I thought long and hard before I did it, and I meant every word. Your father shattering his vows freed me of him, but I still have every intention and desire of fulfilling that vow with you. My love and caring for you is undiminished. My commitment to you has sustained me and kept me.”
“I don’t know what I ever did to deserve a mother like you.”
The smirk on her face even surprised herself.
“Smoking hot, huh?”
Randel blushed again and nodded.
“Well, don’t you get any hot and horny ideas. Porn isn’t real.”
Randel laughed, startling her.
“You got too many knives and guns, too.”