In Ian’s Room
The room was darker than he usually kept the lights when he was in the room. No surprise since he had turned out the lights when he left it earlier, so any light in the room should be a surprise. The warm glow of flickering firelight came from the fireplace, along with the soft warm light from the oil lamps. With that much flame, it wasn’t that hard to understand why the warmth flowed out the door to meet him. Even so, that probably wasn’t the reason he was sweating now.
Standing in the room was Nadia. She was wearing one of the hotel’s huge fluffy robes. Even with how big they were, he could see her long bare legs sticking out the bottom. She was holding two glasses in his hand.
Ian’s mind messed with him just a little. ‘shouldn’t those be champagne flutes instead of crystal highball glasses?’. Nadia came closer. Ian didn’t know how she did it. He didn’t see her take a single step yet here she was right in front of him, holding one of the glasses out to him.
“Aunt Gail said I should just stand here in nothing but a slave collar and a leash, but that’s just not my style, especially on a first date.”
A thousand images flashed through his head memories and imagination colliding in a rush. To give his brain a chance to reset, Ian reached for the glass she was offering as he spoke, stalling for time.
“To be fair, what your Aunt Gail was telling you would be nothing like what I would call a date anyway.” He took a sip as he watched Nadia smile, the firelight dancing across her features. That’s when he noticed he was in the middle of the room. How did he get here? He took another sip. She had said nothing else. She was just looking at him.
“Since this isn’t a ‘Gail’ first date, I take it you have a slightly different plan?”
“Many, many plans, but I also did my research.”
“Oh?”
“Anything done well takes time. Whenever I rushed things in college, things went to crap. You and I have a long way to go ahead of us, so no cheerleader-quarterback games, no fox-girl cosplay. When you didn’t pounce earlier on the implied offer, I rethought things and talked to people. I had to make sure what I was trying to get myself into, so to speak.” She grinned and took a sip.
“So, you’re not into games?”
“Oh, I have no problem with fun little games and episodes in a relationship. Those are fine and dandy, but relationships themselves shouldn’t be treated like a game. I already told you I was making a commitment to travel with you, to be with you all the way down to your family and back. I will be your friend and partner the whole way. What I’m interested in right now is finding out if we could be more than that. Either way though, I’m still committed to being your friend and partner the whole way south and back regardless of your answer.”
He didn’t know how long he just stood there. He heard the fire crackling in the fireplace. He stood there looking at her face as the light from the flame danced on her features.
“I don’t know if I’m any good for this. The last time I tried…” He wasn’t sure where he was going with what he was saying and trailed off mid-sentence.
“Ten years is long enough to keep bouncing ****-toy to ****-toy. You kid is an adult, married and soon to be a father of his own. You don’t need to seek his approval, or anyone else’s for that matter. Ask yourself what do YOU want.” She paused, then a distressed look came over her. She backed up, spreading her arms wide.
“Or don’t I fit the mold of something or someone you would be attracted to? Are you more a bleach blonde, double ‘D’ and bubble butt kinda guy?” She slowly spun in a circle.
He set his glass down and reached for her. He stopped her pirouette with his hand on her arm.
“Trust me. You are VERY attractive to me. All day long every day. I was worried I was too old for you.”
“No. You’re old enough to be past the bullshit games. You’re old enough to care what your partner needs. You’re old enough to realize there’s more to a relationship than banging each other twenty-four seven.” She grinned again. “Not that I object to recreating, but that’s not what a relationship is built from.”
Ian still wasn’t sure. It was like the cartoons. One ear had the halo talking, the other had the horns. Nine out of ten people probably wouldn’t hesitate unless they were gay, and four out of five of those would consider converting. He had a hot twenty-something throwing herself at him for months now. Not a drunk one who couldn’t see how old he was in the low light of the bar, not one who was looking to get back at her boyfriend.
“No leash and collar, so what did you have in mind?” he heard himself say. ‘Well, I guess I came to a decision.’ He thought.
Her smile lit up the room than the lamps did. She finished her glass and set it on the table.
“We start by getting you clean and comfortable.” She reached out and took his hand, leading him deeper into the suite.
Later
He woke up. He was laying there on the sheepskin pad, curled up to her back, her skin warm to his touch. He lay there listening to her breath, just like he did when they were in the garage, only this time he didn’t have to imagine what her body was doing. He could feel it in his chest and with the arm she had pulled across her torso. She held his arm so his hand rested between her breasts.
They had shared the shower, then a light dinner without getting redressed, at her insistence. The next part was the surprise. She banked the fire and pulled him down to the large sheepskin pad and covered them up with a lightweight blanket. The whole time, Ian just followed Nadia’s lead. She was the one with a plan.
As they lay there, doing nothing more than holding one another, he started to understand. Tonight was more about exploring having more of a relationship than it was about sex. That feeling of contentment, that commitment to try and connect with another person.
He had no idea if any of this was real, or how to do it, but he would try. That’s what he told her too, that he would try and he couldn’t promise to be any good at any of it. That was when she laughed and told him that was ten times the honesty of any of her boyfriends and all she could ask of him.
He closed his eyes and lay there listening to her breathe and the crackle of the fire as he went back to sleep.