Sorrow
Mia was gone a lot longer than anyone anticipated. The camp was set up and the food almost ready when she came slowly walking back into camp.
“All good?” Ian asked her.
“No issues to worry about.” Her voice was weak and barely carried to him as she walked on past and set down her gear at the kayak.
“You were gone a while.” Evelyn said, more of a questioning tone to her voice.
“Just making sure of things.” Mia walked on past them, down to the water. She just stood there, staring out at the wind and the waves. She didn’t want to think right now. She wanted to forget. More questions would lead to thinking about answers. She just wanted to lock it away, like some other movie she had never watched, some book she never read.
She wasn’t sure how long she was standing there. She wasn’t sure of much of anything. She felt an arm slide across her shoulders and pull her gently. She went with it, leaning against Erich’s strong chest, the sobs she had been fighting since before she walked into camp were back now.
He just held her. Didn’t ask why, what was going on, none of it. Thank God! It was bad enough she couldn’t escape it in her head. She didn’t need to burden the rest of them. All it would do is make them sad for no real purpose.
“Come have some dinner or do you want me to just bring you a bowl here?” Erich said softly as he held her.
It was times like this she thought of the problem her and Evelyn still hadn’t completely come to a conclusion on. They both had developed strong deep feelings for Erich. Both of them had rescued him in their own way, and in turn he had done the same for them.
Right now, even this support, as wonderful as it felt, it hit too many of the story elements she was trying to forget. She saw the words on the paper again, saw the graves where he had dug them, saw their pictures of a happier time. Even just remembering reading his words threatened to have her bawling all over again. She wasn’t sure why it hit her so hard either. There were a hundred-thousand tragedies from the quake.
The happy little family had been sailing up the coast, husband, wife and young daughter. Then the waves hit. Their boat was tossed and battered and bashed, coming to rest on the shore here.
They had counted themselves lucky to be alive, even though they were marooned. They foraged among the debris for supplies and food, unaware of the huge scope of everything that happened. They were still a young family, full of hope and optimism, even in the face of their predicament.
With Thanksgiving coming upon them fast, he went to find more food for a celebration since it would also be their little girl’s sixth birthday. While he was gone they planned to surprise him instead with a special meal when he got back. If only he had been there.
The fresh mussels and clams were thick and abundant, and they didn’t know why he hadn’t seen nor collected them when he went fishing. They weren’t from around here like he was, otherwise they would have let them be.
They had been trying out the recipe the day before he was supposed to get back, or at least that was what she put in the note she wrote him while she still could. Their little girl complained her skin was tingling. Then the numbness started, first on her lips, then her arms and legs, as it got worse, his wife started feeling the same. At one point she was giving mouth to mouth to their daughter since she had stopped breathing. By the time he got back, fresh rabbits in hand for their Thanksgiving meal, it was already far too late. They were gone.
Mia never saw the wife’s note. She only saw the one he had left on the table in the boat. In it he had spelled all of this out, and so much more. What he did afterward, where he had buried them, his despair at their loss, his failure to protect them, his guilt at having them out on the ocean in the first place, it was all there.
The last part of the letter still hung in her vision as she has stared out into the sea, as he had done for a couple weeks as he tried to come to grips, as he wrote their story. The bottom of the page was where he apologized to them again, and wrote to whoever found it about how he was headed out to the water, his plan to take a handful of sleeping pills and swim for the horizon, so he could join them.
She stood there letting Erich hold her as she looked into the sunset over the water and hoped they found peace.