Last Day

alangator

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Last Day

He would have much preferred to send her an e-mail or even a text but he owed her the truth. The last 24 hours or so had finally awoken him to the reality that guided their lives and he had been much happier when he was still clueless about how bad things really were. He was a little surprised that tears had formed in his eyes and were making their way down his cheeks as he composed the letter on the computer.

Dear Amanda,
This note is as hard for me to write as it will be for you to read and my hope is that someday you will forgive me my many and hurtful mistakes. I still love you as much as anyone in the world and I feel pain that your opinion of me may be altered forever. Let me now offer an apology for what I have done and assure you that I am very sorry. Now on with the terrible news.

This week without you went terribly bad and I now realize that I have a problem or two that a few sessions with a shrink will not make a dent in. While the shrink did confess that he found it unlikely that I was depressed he did say that my occasional drug use has become a barrier to my happiness. In fact what I have referred to as occasional drug use has spiraled into flirting with outright addiction. I can face that reality now and have decided that the only way to regain control of my life and repair the damage I have done is to attempt to clean up my act and have scheduled some time in a facility that specializes in my particular problem.

As if my coming to realize that I am indeed a drug addict isn’t bad enough I have to tell you that I was unfaithful during your absence this week, have gambled away over half our savings and sold the contents of your emergency closet. I know that the stuff had a place in your life even if I didn’t understand why you needed it. The good news is that I couldn’t remember or find the combination to the gun safe and the guns are still safe inside it.

Please try to forgive me and I will contact you after my treatment and we can discuss our situation.

Love Always,
Chester

6 months, 2 days and 8 hours after Amanda read the letter from her husband.

Chester walked into the kitchen carrying a long thin box and set it gently on the kitchen table. Amanda was at the stove making pasta for their anniversary dinner and turned just as Chester was setting the box on the kitchen table.

She turned all the way around and saw the company logo stretched across the box. She wiped her hands on the towel hanging from the oven door. “Is that what I think it is? It looks like what I think it is. Is it? Answer me or I’ll hide your remote and not tell you where I hid it.”

Chester looking better than he had in years smiled at his wife’s excitement. His stint in rehab had started turning his full head of black hair grey at the temples and added to his almost rugged handsomeness. “My lovely wife I don’t know what you’re talking about. I found this box on the street and haven’t even looked inside to see what’s in it. I think it just fell out of somebody’s car or truck and is likely a collection of Justin Barber posters or plumbing supplies.”

Amanda stepped to the table and took a deep breath and smiled at her husband. “You lie; I can see it on your face. And besides the marginally talented and over-exposed asshole’s name is Beiber not Barber.”

Chester smiled. “Happy Birthday. I hope this will be the best 29th Birthday you’ve ever had. Now are you going to open the box or just stand there looking cute? And remember that later on you’re going to get your birthday spanking.”

Amanda touched the box and ran her fingers over the corrugated cardboard that held her birthday gift. She slowly swung the lid of the box up and looked inside hoping that it was the model she wanted. She lifted the lid to the black case that the rifle came in next and she stood there with a grin on her face. “Chester this is exactly the rifle I wanted, you did great. You even ordered it with the winter trigger guard. Prefect, this just might end up being my best 29th Birthday present ever.”
Chester smiled at his wife’s obviously delighted reaction to the present he had pondered over for over a month before ordering. “Well, the good news is that that isn’t all I got for your Birthday. Please follow me Birthday girl. Your birthday adventure continues.”

Amanda didn’t know what else her husband had planned for her special day and followed him into the garage. He stepped around to the bed of his truck parked in their small garage and pulled down the tailgate and stepped back for her inspection. Underneath the bed cover sat 6 plastic pails of supplies from their favorite LTS provider and next to it laid a concealable bulletproof vest that looked like it was in her size.

Amanda picked the vest up and checked the size and was happy to see that the sizing indicated that the vest would accommodate her larger than average bust and her slightly Rubenesque hips. She quickly swung the garment around and flipped it over her shoulders cinched the top straps and did a turn and moved around to see if it fit properly. She ripped the Velcro at one shoulder and then the other and adjusted the fit; she then did a strange dance to get a feel of the fit.

The fit was almost perfect and she turned toward Chester and kissed her husband on the lips. “It fits like a well made glove. Thank you, I love it and yes this is the best Birthday I’ve had for as long as I can remember. You did good Chester and I guess you bought another year in my fabulous company. Of course you still owe me that spanking and I’m going to hold you to it.”

Amanda was kidding about letting him stay on for another year and their relationship had never been as peaceful and fulfilling as it had been for the last 4 months since Chester had gotten back from rehab. Rehab for him had been the best thing to happen to their relationship in 5 years and had taught both of them how much they treasured their life together. The strange thing for Amanda is that all the stages of being mad at him had morphed into understanding and even his infidelity was forgiven like it had never happened. She knew that his mistakes were supposed to signal the end of their marriage but for her the healing process was a thing of beauty and an inspiration to her. If they could work it out then maybe more people should work at repairing their relationships instead of taking the easy way out and getting divorced.

2 years, 2 months, 2 days and 1 hour after Amanda read the letter from her husband.

Amanda stood over the dead body of her husband. One bullet had entered his chest low and was marked by a bloodstain. Another bullet had entered his head and made a small pucker at his temple and had taken a chunk from the back of his skull as it had exited. Blood and visible bone lay in an arc from where he had sat defended her and their baby and possibly saved her life. A stinging sensation still throbbed in her chest where a round had been stopped by the bulletproof vest she had been wearing. She was a tad short of breath from either a broken rib or the shock of what had happened in the last 2 minutes.

Since things had gone to hell in a hand basket life was cheap and she appreciated not only the gifts that had saved her life but her husband’s insistence that she slid her vest on and grab her rifle when the doorbell had rang at 10 o’clock at night. Her husband who her mother had called a loser when he had squandered half their life saving and ended up in rehab had died saving her life and her son’s life.

It happened so fast it seemed almost like a dream. Chester had his weapon out of the holster on his hip as soon as the two tall stinking men had pushed the door open. He killed the first man dead in his tracks almost instantly and winged the other in the leg before he caught the shot in the chest and fell to their imitation wooden floor. The second home invader had administrated the coup de grace as soon as Chester hit the floor and was perforated by Amanda’s AR 15 seconds after the man had killed her husband.

A single tear tracked down her face as she looked at what was left of the two men that lay next to her dead husband’s body. One of the men was familiar and she was trying to place him. He had a beard and hadn’t bathed for awhile and then it hit her. The men that had broken into their house was her husband’s old golf partners Evan and Phil. Chester admitted when he returned after rehab that the men had made a weekly habit of getting high and then hitting the links. Evan and Phil had been the people that had convinced Chester to try coke for the first time and Chester had made it a priority to avoid them like the plague since he had gotten back home and worked things out with Amanda.

Amanda reached into the med pack on her hip and extracted a pair of surgical gloves and felt for a pulse to insure that the men were all dead. As she stood up she noticed that the Glock that Evan had dropped looked familiar. She clearly remembered the day she had let the slide tumble to the floor while she was cleaning it after a day at the range and recognized the small scratch in the weapon’s durable finish. The gun had been stolen out of her car last month in front of the library and the Police hadn’t recovered it yet.

She reached down and searched Evan’s pockets and found a tactical knife that had been in the preps Chester had sold before carting himself off to rehab. He never told her who had bought the contents of her ‘emergency closet’ and now suspected it had been his former drug/golfing buddy Evan.

An idea formed in her head that shocked her. She wanted her preps back from the man that had almost ruined her life once and ended up killing her recovering husband. As far as she was concerned she had bought them back for the price of her husband’s life and she intended to collect if it was at all possible. She reached back into Evans pocket and pulled out his keys. If her ribs were broken her plan wasn’t going to work but if they were just sore she could do this.

Amanda called her mom and told her that something had come up and asked if she could watch Justice overnight. Her mom agreed assuming that her and Chester wanted alone time to further celebrate her birthday and promised to head right over. She went to the cabinet in the kitchen that held their medications and found the pain killers and split a Vicodin in two. She took the half pill and swallowed it with some water.

After 10 minutes the pain was better and she decided that most likely a rib was bruised and not broken as she had feared. Her mother showed up about them and Amanda met her at the door handed a sleeping Justice to her and followed with his bag to her minivan. At the minivan she leaned down and kissed her precious son and thanked her mother again for taking him. She wept silently as her mother drove away understanding that they had dodged a bullet and again was thankful her wonderful husband that lost his life defending her and her baby. She went back to the door and entered the house.

Amanda slowly and carefully went upstairs and waited to see if the shots had been reported and if the cops would show up. After another 30 minutes she changed into a pair of black overalls she had never worn and threw a set of comfy clothes into a duffle and left the house to search for Evan’s truck. Before she left she cranked up the AC and doused all the lights.

Evan’s truck was 2 blocks away sitting on the side of a road next to a line of bushes and she hopped in, set the duffle on the seat and plugged Evan’s address into the appropriate app on Phil’s smart phone. Then she stuck the key into the ignition and tested that the lights, blinkers and turn signal all worked like they were supposed to. She then hopped out of the truck and was pleased to see that the tags were current. Satisfied she had done all she could to keep from getting pulled over she took off to drive the 3.2 miles to Evan’s place. Off she went risking a heap of legal trouble and yet was compelled to follow this task to the end regardless of what happened. Her brave husband was dead, how could it get any worse?

Amanda cruised by Evan’s place and saw the place looked empty. The condo was in an older community and the feeling even at night was that it was maintained poorly. She had no idea if he had roommates or a live-in girlfriend so she parked the truck a block away and made her way to the front door and knocked. As she listened at the door the place had the feeling that it was empty and nobody moved around inside. She walked back down the street and retrieved Evan’s truck and drove around to his garage and hit his clicker. The doors rose in fits and starts and clanked loud enough to wake up every light sleeping retired person and dog on the block. The garage was thankfully empty and she whisked into it and hit the button to close the door.

As the door creaked its way back down the ill-maintained track she took a few deep breaths and summoned her courage and pushed the door of the truck open. Before she had clicked on her flashlight and the overhead light died she saw her small generator sitting under a workbench beside where the truck was parked. She walked toward the door to the house and flipped up the hood on the jacket she had found in the truck.

Most of all she was interested in finding what she had lost and getting the hell out of there so that she wouldn’t have to explain to the cops the delay in calling them. She hoped that her injuries would allow her the opportunity to claim she had passed out from the pain and called as soon as she had awoken and found a phone in the carnage that had been her family’s home.

She had walked into an unfinished area next to the garage and instantly saw some of her preps. Two one thousand round boxes of surplus .308 that was supposed to be Lake City sat on the floor. A grain mill she had paid $400.00 sat on a set of shelves next to her water purification supplies. They were still sealed in the bucket she had put them in three years ago and her hand written notes were affixed to the side written in Sharpie.

She decided to quickly explore the rest of the house and spend 30 minutes scouting the place out. She wore latex gloves the whole time and found what looked like Evan’s drug stash sitting in the walk-in closet of his bedroom on the floor. The room had the spartan look of somebody that was either just moving in or had recently been forced from their main residence. And while the coke held no interest for her the bottles of pain killers did and she took them and slipped them into her pockets.
While she had been nosing around in the kitchen she had found a receipt for a Glock in Phil’s name from 5 years ago and sitting next to the drugs was a Glock in 45 ACP. She ejected the magazine, cleared the chamber and pocketed the handgun and two magazines. 2 minutes into moving stuff around in the closet she found a small hidden panel in the back of the closet and yanked it out. She shined her flashlight inside and saw a wrapped bundle of coke that wouldn’t fit inside a softball. But the thing she was interested in was the familiar cloth bags that junk silver often times was sold in.

Next to it was 2 clear tubes that held what looked like gold 1 once coins. She didn’t take the time to examine her haul she just picked them up and headed back to the garage and unfinished area to get her stuff back and get gone.

The struggle to load her stuff into the truck was brutal and almost drove her to tears from the pain but 15 minutes later the creaky garage door was rolling up again and she was on the road back toward her house. She was trying to figure out where to stash her stuff or if she should just drive up to it and unload everything and change and get 911 on the line. When she had loaded the generator it had almost caused her to pass out from the pain near her ribs and she decided that the decision was simple. Park the truck in front of the garage at her house and unload her preps. Then she would walk 1/8 of a mile into the nearby park and stash the gold if it was gold, the silver that might be in the cloth bag and the Glock she had found. She’d strip off the overalls and tie a rock around them and throw them into the small lake that was there and sneak back home naked wearing just her shoes. Also Phil's phone would need to be tossed in the lake. If she could manage to rinse off in the backyard she’d then walk inside and put on the clothes she was wearing when the shooting happened.

All that unpacking and hiking around took 45 minutes and when she slipped back into her clothes she was exhausted. Exhausted as she was she walked to where she had fired from and hoisted her AR back onto her shoulder and squeezed off two more shots into the wall next to the doorway. She saw a fly land on Evan’s face as she dialed 911 and held her husband’s hand for the last time.
 

DustMusher

Deceased
Great way to wake up.

MOAR, please -- this has a lot of possibilities on how it can go from here.

DM
 
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alangator

Inactive
Thanks for the positive comments they mean a lot to me. Comments are a way to validate and justify the effort that writing a story takes and lets me know people are investing their time to hear what I'm saying.
I wrote this as more of an index card story but it might have a few more installments to go.
This is not a story I'll serialize so expect maybe 3 to 5 chapters tops. Writing from a female perspective is different for me and I hope this story feels as if it was written by a woman. If there are occasion lapses of female insight forgive me I'm male and doing the best I can.
thanks
alangator
 

alangator

Inactive
Last Day
Chapter 2

Amanda sat trying to figure out how many ways she could get caught for what she had done after she watched her husband die. Her plan was thrown together and had some holes but she hoped she had covered enough of the high points she’d be OK. So she mentally reviewed what little she know about forensics and the art of deciphering clues left after a crime hoping that the TV shows and movies had at least some basis in reality.

As she waited for the 911 operator to answer she remembered that she needed to get the number of the friendly lawyer that she had gotten when she had taken her concealed carry classes. That was in her purse so she went to find it and pondered the other details that could complicate her life even more than it was already complicated.

She was dialing the number on the card when she remembered that if the truck was found soon that it would still be hot from her quick drive to Evan’s condo. Turning the AC down to cool the bodies down was an obvious oversight because if they used the temperature of the body to help figure out when everything happened she had a problem that just might come back and haunt her. She also hoped that the Police couldn’t track the remote to Phil’s truck that she had dropped on the street near where she had returned the truck to.

The keys to the truck were back in their owner’s pocket. But the gun she had taken from the condo might have been involved in crimes and she wanted to make sure she remembered to never ever get caught with it on her person or in her house. She hoped that the ballistics weren’t tied to another crime and that her having the weapons didn’t leave any cases open.

Since she just dialed the number she quickly ended the call hoping that the information had not gone through to the 911 dispatch center and that she still had a few minutes to get a call into the lawyer. The phone was one of their older models stashed in the closet and might not have the GPS locating technology that was all the rage. Her phone was next to the front door on the small table that held their key and change bowl and she didn’t want to traverse that area since the blood and carnage upset her.

She found her purse and the number was laminated and in her wallet just like she remembered when she had put it there thinking that she and Chester would never need the number. She smiled at the fact that she had still had laminated the card just in case she ever needed it. She picked the card from the wallet and dialed the number and waited only to see that the signal bar on the phone was showing no service. Strange, so Amanda went and retrieved her husband’s phone in the kitchen after looking around for a few minutes and found the same thing happened to it. With everything that she had gone through in the last few hours she assumed that the problem must be a tower down or something so she went outside and began walking down the street till the signal bar indicated that she had signal.

She had been focused on what she done wrong and trying to figure out while their phones weren’t working. Pondering the strangeness of what had and was happening she realized that on the other end of the phone someone was talking. “Hello, is anybody there?”
Amanda stopped her walking. “Sorry I was distracted. My name is Amanda Fugg and I need to speak with William P. Stone immediately it’s an emergency.”

Over the other end of her husband’s cell phone came the reply to her urgent request. “May I ask if this is a criminal or a firearms related emergency?”

Amanda replied. “Yes, it’s a firearms related emergency but we are the victims of a crime and not a criminal. I need to speak to him before I involve the Police if I can.”

Over her phone she heard the excitement in the speaker’s voice. “I can contact him immediately and you might hear from in the next 5 or 10 minutes. But if someone is hurt please hang up and call 911 immediately and then call us back. Please be patient, I understand that this is extremely frightening. Bill, I mean Mr. Stone will take care of you, he’s a real pro. Amanda my name is Hollis. Now Amanda, give me your number again and spell your last name for me and I’ll get the ball rolling.”

Buoyed by the reassuring words of the anonymous voice on the other end of the line she did as she was told and talked to her new best friend Hollis while she waited for the lawyer to call her. Less than 10 minutes later her phone indicated she had another call and she thanked Hollis for her help and went over to the incoming call.

Amanda explained to William P. Stone where she had gotten his number and gave him the rough overview of what had happened. Stone asked if she was sure that everyone on-site was dead and Amanda told him that she had some first-aid training and that everyone was indeed dead including her husband. He asked for her address and told her to immediately call 911 and report the incident. He wanted to make sure that she was outside and obeyed each and every command that they gave her as well as not making any statements till he got there in 30 or 40 minutes. He told her that she was to set out each and every gun in the house with the exception of the guns that the men had brought to the home invasion and her husband’s pistol. Their guns were to have their magazines removed and the slides or cylinders in a safe position. Also he mentioned that if she could put her hands on paperwork for those guns it would show that she and her husband were law abiding citizens that were forced to use deadly force using legally purchased weapons. He confirmed that she had said that she had been shot and that her vest had taken a round and that she was to request medical attention and transportation to the hospital as soon as possible. He also explained that she would be treated as if she was criminal and should expect that she would be searched, handcuffed and that her clothes would be taken from her at some point.

The two ended their call and as she talked to the 911 dispatcher she told them exactly what she was told to by her new lawyer Bill Stone and wondered if she had made a tragic mistake in trying to get her preps back. But what was done was done and there was no way to turn back the hands of time now.

When the first patrol vehicle showed up shortly after she called 911 it was confusing and Bill Stone was right the Police didn’t treat her like a victim but more like a suspect. 20 minutes later Amanda had been searched and given her Miranda Warning. The officers were careful as they patted her down after she told them that she had been shot and that her vest had taken the round. The patrol officers had brought out all their weapons including her AR and sat them on a blanket on the hood of a patrol car.

She inhaled deeply as the paramedics looked at her as they checked her vitals and gave her a reassuring smile that indicated that they understood what she was going through. A detective had shown up 15 minutes after the first 3 police cars and the ambulance and she told her that she was going to cooperate but needed to talk to her lawyer before they did her interview. During this time the stress and shock of what had happened caught up to her and she threw-up so violently that she expelled some gas in a very unladylike manner. The good news is that remains of last meal barely got on Detective Crager’s sensible shoe.

She watched as 2 patrolman walked over to the other 2 houses in their secluded cul-de-sac and know that since one house was bank owned and the other was vacant rental property that the chances of finding witnesses to anything that had happened was pretty small.

Taking the paramedics advice they began to usher her to the detective’s car to transport her to the hospital for a more complete exam. A fancy looking newer Acura pulled up to the scene and a short stout man with red hair got out of the car. He spoke to a uniformed policeman briefly and headed to Amanda and the detective standing next to her.

When he stood next to them he smiled at Amanda. “Detective Crager I’m William Stone and I’m Amanda’s legal representation. Obviously Amanda needs to get to the hospital and get looked at. As you know her wound might have caused dangerous internal damage. After she gets the all clear there she and I need to chat briefly before you interview her.” He glanced at the detective for a beat and then turned back to Amanda. “Amanda good to meet you. I’m Bill Stone, how are you feeling?”

The detective nodded to indicate that she agreed with what the lawyer had said. I’m detective Wilma Crager and we were just about to take her in to get looked at. I know Mercy is out of the way but they do an excellent job with these types of things and I’d recommend them highly. It’s where we send our people when something happens. I mean if there is no other trauma other than taking one to the vest. The Docs there are nice and they’ll bump us up to the front of the line if nobody in the ER is critical.”

Bill Stone nodded his agreement to the suggestion. “Detective Crager it’s nice to meet you and thank you for the recommendation. I’ve always heard Mercy is good for this type of thing but I’ve never met anyone that was shot in the vest before.’ He turned to Amanda. “Amanda is Mercy OK with you?”

Amanda was relieved that the lawyer was here to help her thru this ordeal. “Honestly I’ve been better and my body feels like I was trampled by a bull. If Mercy is the best then I’d like to go there and get looked at. I think it’s on my insurance list or at least it was.”

Bill Stone watched her thinking it was crazy that someone that got shot was in a position that they had to consider their insurance coverage after they had undergone the experience that Amanda had. “It’s decided. Detective Crager can Amanda drive with me or does she need to stay with you?”

Detective Crager gently shook her head. “Mr. Stone I’m sorry to say that she will need to stay with me but you can meet us there. Or she can be transported by the ambulance. They said they are pretty sure she is OK but that she still needs to be looked at by a Doctor and might need to have some imaging done to confirm that everything is OK internally.”

Bill Stone considered the situation and made his decision. “Detective I think Amanda should be transported by the paramedics’. That way if her insurance balks we can show that the ambulance crew was concerned enough that they agreed to transport her.”
Detective Crager smiled to indicate that she understood what he was thinking and walked over to the ambulance crew and spoke with them.

Bill Stone had a reassuring smile on his face and Amanda thought that he understood the pain she was feeling from her injuries both and emotionally and physically. He watched her for a moment. “Amanda I know this is a lot to take in but it’ll be OK. We’ll get you checked out and get a clean bill of health and then get this knocked out. Once we get to the Police station it’ll go quicker than you think.
 

debralee

Senior Member
Uh oh. I'm thinking she is just a little to calmed down acting for this to have just happened. Maybe the lawyer is thinking so too, with her being concerned about her insurance paying while her husband is laying dead inside and not crying or acting hysterical.
You have a great story going here and I need more.&.Thankyou.
 

Rabbit

Has No Life - Lives on TB
Not everyone reacts the same in times of trauma and maybe the more mundane things they think of are the minds way for trying to make things normal again?

When first shocked like that everyone's body reacts the same way. All of the blood rushes away from your extremities and brain to protect the major organs. That's why people can't remember the simplest things like their own phone number and can hardly get their fingers to push the right numbers on the phone. In that moment they probably wouldn't even be able to hold a cell phone.

Police officers are taught a simple quick breathing exercise to calm themselves down so they can think and react rationally in those situations.

If the time of the 911 call becomes an issue Amanda can always claim the shot she took in her vest knocked her out and then in the shock of it all she didn't know what to do. It doesn't take the body that long to get over the initial shock, but she might be able to get away with it.

Good story.
 

sabretech2001

Contributing Member
Debra,

Thankfully you won't be on her jury. It's exactly that sort of Monday morning quarterbacking that has put survivors of an otherwise good shoot behind bars or in debt for the rest of their lives.
 

alangator

Inactive
Spoiler-
Actually I was going to use the pain from her injuries and the dulling of her emotions from the pain medication that she took to cause her reactions to be masked and delayed about what happened to them.
Pain and/or pain meds can be a hell of a distraction and I thought maybe I'd mention it before the comments went too far off-topic.
thanks,
alangator
P.S. Someone mentioned a hole in my post victim illegal activity realization and I adjusted accordingly. Thanks for taking the time to catch that oversight and keep looking for more and I'll work the fixes into the story.
 

Dreamer

Veteran Member
This is a great story so far, I can't wait to read more. I know several people who become cool as cucumbers when something bad happens, and are able to function very clearly for a number of hours to days to weeks after the event. And then they crash, generally when it is clear that everything is safe. It is the same for me. Everything extra is peeled away and I almost end up with a flow chart or to do list of what is needed to stop the damage and start things fixing right away. I've seen it in others enough that while far from common, it shouldn't be enough to convict her.
 

Tckaija

One generation behind...
This is a great story so far, I can't wait to read more. I know several people who become cool as cucumbers when something bad happens, and are able to function very clearly for a number of hours to days to weeks after the event. And then they crash, generally when it is clear that everything is safe. It is the same for me. Everything extra is peeled away and I almost end up with a flow chart or to do list of what is needed to stop the damage and start things fixing right away. I've seen it in others enough that while far from common, it shouldn't be enough to convict her.

I gotta agree with Dreamer on this one.

I believe it is somewhere between 5 - 8% of the population who has the [good] post-incident adrenaline reaction...

I am sure there is a technical name for it (heh, the bean sorters always have to have a label!) but is a double edged sword... Time s-t-r-e-t-c-h-e-s..... Seconds become minutes...

In your brain you are working normally, but the whole world around you goes into slow motion - you can make choices - see what needs to be done but the machinery just won't respond...

I was in a car crash a couple years ago - I was driving (a Camry) and a large Con-Way truck drive into me doing 70+ mph and spun me in front of it... I KNEW I needed to get away from it and not back into the right lane traffic... I managed to get the car controlled enuf to take it into the median wall and take the secondary impact on my corner rather than my wifes door.. then slid it [backwards] down I94 till we came to a stop on top the wall...

Total time from impact to stop - maybe 5 seconds - but it felt like several minutes... car was totaled - got all four corners and the rear floor but we got out of it with a small concussion (wife), whiplash and sprained ankle/knee (me).... I didn't realize my ankle/knee was boogered till after the cops got there.

We got off light could have been much worse. Once the adrenaline burned off then we were [aching]! ;)

With all that said: Great story! Please tell us more!
 

kua

Veteran Member
Dreamer, I do the same thing. Cool and completely able to function until the fear calms down, the emergency is past, and then I come unglued. I don't recommend it as it takes a toll when others are starting to get going again, but we are what we are.
Alangator, quite an interesting story line you have going here. TEOTWAWKI comes in so many different ways for so many of us. Thanks for giving us this story. Looking forward to more of it.
 

Genevieve

working on it
I did pretty much the same when my daughter was murdered. I was good all thru the police showing up, the evidence gathering, all the questions, the funeral arrangements, even the memorial, but about 3 days later I just went into shut down mode. Nothing drastic. I just....shut down. Didn't speak, didn't eat, and didn't sleep. No hysterics, no whaling crys. Just nothing. After about a week, I was back to eating, speaking, but sleep hasn't come back yet. It's still screwed up lol
 

Tckaija

One generation behind...
I did pretty much the same when my daughter was murdered. I was good all thru the police showing up, the evidence gathering, all the questions, the funeral arrangements, even the memorial, but about 3 days later I just went into shut down mode. Nothing drastic. I just....shut down. Didn't speak, didn't eat, and didn't sleep. No hysterics, no whaling crys. Just nothing. After about a week, I was back to eating, speaking, but sleep hasn't come back yet. It's still screwed up lol

Oh Genevieve, I am so sorry for your loss! Remember that someday you will see her again.
 

goinpostal

Contributing Member
I gotta agree with Dreamer on this one.

I believe it is somewhere between 5 - 8% of the population who has the [good] post-incident adrenaline reaction...

I am sure there is a technical name for it (heh, the bean sorters always have to have a label!) but is a double edged sword... Time s-t-r-e-t-c-h-e-s..... Seconds become minutes...

In your brain you are working normally, but the whole world around you goes into slow motion - you can make choices - see what needs to be done but the machinery just won't respond...

I was in a car crash a couple years ago - I was driving (a Camry) and a large Con-Way truck drive into me doing 70+ mph and spun me in front of it... I KNEW I needed to get away from it and not back into the right lane traffic... I managed to get the car controlled enuf to take it into the median wall and take the secondary impact on my corner rather than my wifes door.. then slid it [backwards] down I94 till we came to a stop on top the wall...

Total time from impact to stop - maybe 5 seconds - but it felt like several minutes... car was totaled - got all four corners and the rear floor but we got out of it with a small concussion (wife), whiplash and sprained ankle/knee (me).... I didn't realize my ankle/knee was boogered till after the cops got there.

We got off light could have been much worse. Once the adrenaline burned off then we were [aching]! ;)

With all that said: Great story! Please tell us more!

There are quick draw western shooters,and rifle sharp shooters who are able to control their conception of time In a similar manner.I believe the term for it is called being a"Gunsel".They tend to be the"Best of the best".
Matt
 

Rabbit

Has No Life - Lives on TB
I did pretty much the same when my daughter was murdered. I was good all thru the police showing up, the evidence gathering, all the questions, the funeral arrangements, even the memorial, but about 3 days later I just went into shut down mode. Nothing drastic. I just....shut down. Didn't speak, didn't eat, and didn't sleep. No hysterics, no whaling crys. Just nothing. After about a week, I was back to eating, speaking, but sleep hasn't come back yet. It's still screwed up lol

Oh Genevieve, I'm so sorry.
 

alangator

Inactive
Geneieve,
Thanks for having the courage to share that with us that must be painful.
I'll be honest and say even if I did write the story I'm just as or more interested in the comments that have been shared and found your insight compelling.
thanks
alangator
 

Genevieve

working on it
It's ok guys. But Thanks. It's been 13 years and I deal with it. I know it will never go away, but it does get a little easier to deal with as time goes on.

Thats why I always say, Life's too short. Stop playing games. Be real in your Life and dealings with others. Don't let others think that you don't love them or they make you crazy. Tell them. Get rid of the toxic people and things in your life. Theres not enough time to be fooling with all the crap and drama.
 
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