CHAT I love Alaska, but I hate where may have to live

[AlaskaSue]

Who among you ever thought, having lived after widowhood, raising two fine young men, living in the light of Christ...to end up in absolute penury * thank you obamacare, I really tried to not get caught in that net * and then THEN find you have to give half your income to have that REQUIRED no choice medicare....still alone...still trying to do all to God's glory..... I always believed since I was four years old I would see Christ coming in His glory and still have that hope. My sweet boys and their kids give me hope too. But what a ridiculous place to find myself. After 45 years of work to own no home, to be so stupid in debt to the gov't....and I really thought I was being careful. No one around here cares. Not sure I should at this point. But you know, I do have some health. I do have some strength. And I still think I have a sound mind. Not really sure where I need to be at this point. I love my Alaska...it's the only place I have ever wanted to be. But perhaps another sacrifice and move to that state south and be with my family when this all goes down. God help me...that's all I ever really had. Forgive my maudlin mind tonight. No sleep for weeks makes Susan a little bit silly I guess.

 

[Walrus Whisperer]

His Hand is on your shoulder.

 

[bw]

Sorry to hear you're in this position.

 

[frazbo]

You know you're going to get a ton of prayers for you Alaska Sue, so we know you're going to be all right...He is watching over you, He knows you need Him and can't do this by yourself. Your faith in Him will take you a long way.
I think, also, that you've voiced a few things that have crossed many of our minds in the society of today. Making choices we never thought we'd have to make and really not wanting to but because of our love of family, we must.

Thank you for sharing that, makes one think.

 

[AlaskaSue]

Thank you, your kindness reaches a place in my soul that I don't know you can understand. I live with incredibly horrible people. Drug addicts who steal and lie and are filthy in every way. It's where I am now, and I know it's what I should do to show the love of my Lord. But thank you for your kindness. It's a light in a very dark place in my very dark life. And I'm a goody-two-shoes (lol) so who da thunk I'd be here. I truly love this forum and the folks here <3

 

[Dennis Olson]

What about Medicaid ?

 

[Pinecone]

It sounds like you are too nice a person to be where you are and if you don't feel safe to sleep, you must get out of there. I understand not wanting to move from the incredibly beautiful place where your soul is free, but there is great joy in being with grandchildren in that southern state. Or can you be a nanny to someone up there? Some place that's a good home that needs help with the kids that provides room and board and a wage, even if its a small one? Is there a need for house sitting? That can also pay a small wage. You have my prayers, too, for a solution, for peace and happiness.

 

[Marie]

Prayers sent and trust in HIM. You know he always leads you to where you need to be.

 

[jward]

Uhoh girlie, is it time for more hot tea and hugs? Remember, all these negative feelings are GOOD things, it means you're gathering the energy to create change in your life. If it did not suck so, then it would be easy to complacently suffer in silence. Life is not meant to be suffered, but to be held close in joyous exuberance.
You'll get there too if you don't dodge this pain, but let it motivate you to seek out and change those impediments to living the life you wish to have. You're of that age where SS and such kick in, and we may all soon have subsidized incomes- sit down dream your best life, make a list of what has to change to acquire it, then GET ER DONE. You know you can. I know you can ((Sue))

 

[et2]

Prayers for your wellness and future

 

[Betty_Rose]

I do think it’s important for women like us to be in a safe place for this coming season of financial instability.

And it’s very wise to be making those hard choices now, while you still have options.

Having been through our own personal and unique hell, I think you and I are uniquely suited to face just about anything.

 

[AlaskaSue]

I do think it’s important for women like us to be in a safe place for this coming season of financial instability.

And it’s very wise to be making those hard choices now, while you still have options.

Having been through our own personal and unique hell, I think you and I are uniquely suited to face just about anything.

Thank you dear one. I know that you know. But God is still in control...and I rest in His hands Bless you sweet sister.

 

[Meemur]

Alaska Sue, you already know prayer is critical, but I also suggest that you chat with any trusted elders, either in the church or others who have wisdom to make sure that you've left no stones unturned. Speak also with a Christian financial counselor and an eldercare specialist (maybe the local hospital has one? Maybe the hospital social worker? Know what programs/resources are available for older women.) This will also be hard, but I and others will be praying for you.

We women don't always get the good financial advice we need when we need it, so I encourage you to seek it out. Things may not be as bad as you think! There might be an alternative career path for you that will allow you to remain in Alaska but move to a better living situation. Ask! Ask! Ask!

 

[Rabbit]

I am praying the Lord will make a good way for you.

 

[jazzy]

praying the good Lord show you clearly what and where He wants you to be.

 

[AlaskaSue]

I never mean to be a downer...I know without doubt God has His hand on my life. But I thank every one of you for your kind thoughts and prayers. What a silly I can be...at 64 even. I just want to live my life in His light and to His glory. But it's becoming hard in these days and after so many years alone maybe I am having a bit of a hiccup in it all. You here, are an amazing light and lift what for me what are dark days. Thank you, all. May God bless you to only see His light and the life He wants for you. <3

 

[thompson]

Sue, you've been in my prayers ever since I learned of your living conditions... prayers for the Lord to make plain your path. My prayers continue.

 

[Donald Shimoda]

Howdy, Folks!

I live with incredibly horrible people. Drug addicts who steal and lie and are filthy in every way. It's where I am now, and I know it's what I should do to show the love of my Lord.

Sounds like you have heathen a'plenty to minister to.

From where I'm sitting, it's actually pretty obvious why you are where you are.

Believe it or not - you'll be fine.

Peace and love,

Donald Shimoda

 

[Ragnarok]

Who among you ever thought, having lived after widowhood, raising two fine young men, living in the light of Christ...to end up in absolute penury * thank you obamacare, I really tried to not get caught in that net * and then THEN find you have to give half your income to have that REQUIRED no choice medicare....still alone...still trying to do all to God's glory..... I always believed since I was four years old I would see Christ coming in His glory and still have that hope. My sweet boys and their kids give me hope too. But what a ridiculous place to find myself. After 45 years of work to own no home, to be so stupid in debt to the gov't....and I really thought I was being careful. No one around here cares. Not sure I should at this point. But you know, I do have some health. I do have some strength. And I still think I have a sound mind. Not really sure where I need to be at this point. I love my Alaska...it's the only place I have ever wanted to be. But perhaps another sacrifice and move to that state south and be with my family when this all goes down. God help me...that's all I ever really had. Forgive my maudlin mind tonight. No sleep for weeks makes Susan a little bit silly I guess.

Just me but if you love where you live find a way to make it work.

You will be miserable anywhere that you don't love.

 

[night driver]

Remember, "POWERFUL WORKS R GOD!!"

 

[coloradohermit]

Sending hugs and prayers for your physical and emotional wellbeing.

 

[bassgirl]

Perhaps the reality of being alone with absolutely no one you can depend on is hitting home?

I am in the same boat. My son died 13 years ago. I am divorced. Currently I have family, but that will change sometime in the near future as my parents are really aging.

Thus, the reality that other than my brother, (you your children), is all we have. You will need to make a decision. Do you stay where you are and hope you can stay independent, or do you move now, while you can, before you can’t on your own anymore.

Then the gut wrenching, not really wanting to leave what makes you happy. Do your self (and your kids) a favor. Move now while you can. Find a place down south where you will like it. You dont have to live exactly where they do, but a 3-4 hour drive is more doable than 3 days. Not sure where in the south, but AR, TN, KY, AL, the Carolinas all have beautiful mountain areas. And they are all cheaper than living in AK.

You could live Fulltime in a nice RV down here. And that is way cheaper than a house.

As for ministry, there are drug addicts everywhere. I am not sure I understood that part of your post. Do you have to live that way to make it work? Or you are living that way as a calling?

It is a hard decision. But it can be done. Just think and pray on it, research your options.

 

[WanderLore]

I'm in for the little RV. Work kamp a bit if possible. Maintain some independence but be near family too

 

[Jmurman]

AKSue, prayers for you. I believe that the Christ-followers are all going through some last-minute organizing, so to speak. I dreamed of moving back to Oregon for years and that's one dream I'll have to give up on. As much as I love our land, this place isn't for me to hold on to. Jesus said for us to store treasures in Heaven. He also promised that we have a place with Him forever. I'm watching the news diligently. Russia, Turkey, Iran, and now the recent Lybian news. All the makings of Ezekiel 38-39. So if I can offer you anything it is this; Luke 12:22-34.

 

[twobarkingdogs]

I followed health care insurance premiums for about 10 years before retiring as I knew it was going to be my biggest expense which would only increase each year. O-care caused a huge jump in insurance costs and for me caused a major change in how I was looking at planning for retirement. Luckily in 6 years when I hit 65 then this all goes away for me with getting on medicare. Assuming things stay the same. Which they almost never do. Sorry to hear about your medicare issues. yes its a government program which is not set up the best to help folks in the lower end of middle class

Good luck to you

tbd

 

[Freeholder]

I love Alaska, too, but am glad to be here in Kentucky right now. There are lots of good places to live, that are less expensive and easier, especially as we get older (I’m only a year behind you).

Kathleen

 

[adgal]

Who among you ever thought, having lived after widowhood, raising two fine young men, living in the light of Christ...to end up in absolute penury * thank you obamacare, I really tried to not get caught in that net * and then THEN find you have to give half your income to have that REQUIRED no choice medicare....still alone...still trying to do all to God's glory..... I always believed since I was four years old I would see Christ coming in His glory and still have that hope. My sweet boys and their kids give me hope too. But what a ridiculous place to find myself. After 45 years of work to own no home, to be so stupid in debt to the gov't....and I really thought I was being careful. No one around here cares. Not sure I should at this point. But you know, I do have some health. I do have some strength. And I still think I have a sound mind. Not really sure where I need to be at this point. I love my Alaska...it's the only place I have ever wanted to be. But perhaps another sacrifice and move to that state south and be with my family when this all goes down. God help me...that's all I ever really had. Forgive my maudlin mind tonight. No sleep for weeks makes Susan a little bit silly I guess.

I truly understand the situation you are in - I think someday in the future when they look back on Obamacare, they will find that most middle-class folks ended up sicker and poorer because it took our money and gave us no health care in return. But, one of the things I've learned in my own life is when the Lord closes doors, it's often because He is trying to guide us in another direction - one that we might not have taken had the door not been closed. God cares - He loves you - and He has the ability to see the things that we can't. Trust in Him. Pray to Him. And walk forward in faith.

 

[Blastoff]

God led Daniel out of a lion's den, and He wants to lead you to safety, too. Go to your loved ones. They surely must fret over your unsafe situation and fear they cannot get to you in a timely manner when needed.

This Earth is beautiful all over.

 

[Cardinal]

Lemme know if ya wanna chat. I'm here for ya.

 

[WanderLore]

Cheaprvliving/forums

I've read there for years to learn simple off grid stuff. It's an eye opener to what is available

 

[rafter]

I thought the same thing about Colorado as you do Alaska. Never wanted to move away from it. My DH said for years...one day we won't be able to afford to live here.... He was right, I just didn't want to accept it. Well once he got sick and terminal, we moved back to Mo after being gone 25 years. Much cheaper, and much easier....not tons of snow to scoop and not harsh long winters. Since he died, I have created my own social group around the horse stuff I do. I have some great friends that know only me...not my husband. I have great neighbors that will help me if I need it. I have accepted the fact that I can't live in the mountains anymore and even though I miss them and the mountain air would never move back. Sure I'd go out and go camping again, but I don't even want to live there after being gone from it for 6 years. I have come to the conclusion after thinking about my life now that God puts us where he wants us to be.

I hope you can find this also.

 

[mzkitty]

What Rafter and Blastoff said............

I thought I wouldn't like FL either, but I do. Things are so much easier here once you get set up. And the pace of life is slow(er).

 

[Cardinal]

What Rafter and Blastoff said............

I thought I wouldn't like FL either, but I do. Things are so much easier here once you get set up. And the pace of life is slow(er).

Yeah I miss it. If it weren't for all the friends I've made here, I'd move back.

 

[Dozdoats]

Sue,

Take care of YOURSELF first and foremost. Alaska will be there no matter what, but you might not be ….

Go where life is....

 

[AlfaMan]

I never mean to be a downer...I know without doubt God has His hand on my life. But I thank every one of you for your kind thoughts and prayers. What a silly I can be...at 64 even. I just want to live my life in His light and to His glory. But it's becoming hard in these days and after so many years alone maybe I am having a bit of a hiccup in it all. You here, are an amazing light and lift what for me what are dark days. Thank you, all. May God bless you to only see His light and the life He wants for you. <3

Your questions don't show a weakness in your faith, it shows a very strong strength. some days life can kick you in the face. You having these questions and doubts just says your'e about to kick those doubts back, and below the belt too. Been there, done that. Take a deep breath, scope out your options and make your move. God will ensure it will be the right one.

 

[Ragnarok]

What Rafter and Blastoff said............

I thought I wouldn't like FL either, but I do. Things are so much easier here once you get set up. And the pace of life is slow(er).

Yeah I miss it. If it weren't for all the friends I've made here, I'd move back.

And, here I am hoping to get out.

LOVED it after moving here after living for 23 years in Wisconsin. But, now that I have lived here for longer than I lived in Wisconsin, I find myself agitated by the dense population and never being able to get away from the idiotic drivers. I like that it is always summer, which is my favorite season, but I miss being able to go out into the woods and just be alone with nature. And, now that I was foolish enough to buy a house, every 6 months I get the fun of worrying about hurricanes.

I don't like it, anymore. But, having a house is an anchor and having the best paying job I have ever had makes it harder to let go.

 

[Doc1]

Sue, a lot of pensioners and SS recipients move in together as room mates. It can be hard to find someone compatible, but splitting all of the household bills makes for much cheaper living than doing it soley on your own. You might talk to your pastor. He might know of another lady who could use a room mate.

Best
Doc

 

[Bubble Head]

What Doc1 says is so true. You might still be eligible for Christian Medical Share Ministry. It will get you off of O care and you can talk to Doctors who you feel comfortable with. Save you a lot of money.
I, myself, struggle with leaving the mountains. It is just me and my life. I would move to Alaska even though I know how expensive everything is but the mountains are like home. Trust in the LORD with all you do and HE will put you exactly where HE wants you.

 

[Nich1]

AlaskaSue, it is difficult to learn of your circumstances. Your posts on the forum have always been sensible and uplifting. Now, we need to try to do that for you. The expression of your faith in the Lord allows me to know that despite your spot right now, there is something ahead being prepared for you. I am unable to understand and internalize what you are feeling and going through. But, I, too, believe in our Heavenly Father and know that He has promised to never abandon those who trust in Him. I will join you and the many here who will be praying for you. I will pray that you will not waver in knowing that God knows exactly what you need and He will provide it somehow. Placing your name and your need before the Throne is an honor. Let's look for a miracle together.

 

[Jonas Parker]

You know, "Texas Sue" does have a nice ring to it!